Catch My Love

Chapter 8

*Scarlett pov*

Yesterday night after Zayn left I knew he was mad at me for not telling him about my bad past memories but to be honest I didnt wanted to tell him just yet, I couldnt just say "You know a year ago I was friends with Beverly and this guy who used to be my best friend called Eric, he made a bet with Beverly about me getting to trust him too much so he could touch me and make me have sex with him. It didn't end up that way but it was pretty bad at the end. Im afraid of being too close to some guy and im not ready for a relationship" I dont think so. He would think im declaring my full feelings about a relationship with him which im just thinking about giving a try, im not even sure yet. What if this is just messing around for him to have some fun with me. I dont want to get hurt again, not like this. I trust people way too easily and they end up hurting me. Beverly for example, she was one of my closest friends, we got along very well when I first got here and I told her everything about me. My parents loved her and she knew I was a virgin and that the entire sex thing made me nervous so when she saw the chance of paying back for something she thinks I do but never did she went for it and made that stupid bet with Eric.

Beverly and I, we both liked the same boy over a year ago. He was in our history class and he had come from Australia for his mothers work, he was staying for that school year. I liked him first, he had blonde hair and green eyes his toned chest and sexy body had me drooling over him and as soon as I told Beverly about my crush she start to show interest on him too. She was always more spontaneous than me so she start to talk to him and it hurt me because she knew I liked him first. I told her that she wasnt being a good friend for doing that so she just decided to go and date him and she called me a worthshit prude in front of him. It was the last time I took interest in some guy, after that I grew closer to Hazel, I leaned on her every time I needed someone and then we start to become best friends almost immediately and well now she's still my only best friend.

I need to explain so much to Zayn but it's not the right time to. Im still trying to figure out what to do with this thing we are doing about kissing and cuddling. I dont know where it goes from here, I have never had a boyfriend before and he have had a girlfriend or girlfriends im not sure but he is more experienced than I am, but I think that the relationship he had didn't end up well. I should ask him sometime

"Earth to Scarlett" Hazel clap her hands in my face

"Sorry what?" I say looking at her

"I said 'Can you please tell me what's going on between you and Zayn because it got me confused about you two acting all touchy'" she repeat herself again

"Haz he just put his arm around my shoulders that day you brought him upstairs" I say defending her accusation of us both being so touchy. Which we are not

"Okay okay. But tell me, really what's going on?" She raise her eyebrow at me

"We have just been messing around. Im not even sure what's happening between us and it got me overthinking too much about it"

I know I can spill my feelings to Hazel, shes my best friend and i can't hide her anything, she will know whats wrong with me at first sight

"But what have you done to 'mess around'?´" She ask

"Well on Friday as you know we left the party and we went over to his house. We start watching a movie and then we went to his room which has a super big balcony and he had chairs and blankets there so we start talking and we suggested for us to play the ýes or no question game' so it was just asking questions to one another and we needed to answer honestly either yes or no, so we were playing and then he asked me if I wanted to kiss him because he wanted to and then I might have said yes and we kissed, but he had confess he liked Melissa before so I felt bad and I asked him but he told me he was just messing with me to see my reaction and then we start to kiss again until I came home"