Catch My Love

Chapter 39

*Zayn pov*

My head is spinning right now, Im confused as hell as I try to clear out what had just happened. I see Ryan approaching me rapidly with a frown in his face

"Mate what the fuck? Scarlett just saw you kissing Evelyn" He says loudly so I can hear over the blustering music. I dont say anything back, instead I start clumsily to look for her. My head is spinning right bow and not in the best way, I feel i had fuck everything up and even if im not sure Scarlett saw she will surely find out from another person making it worse than it is, but as Ryan said she had seen me so now she is probably hating me

I go up to my room to see if shes there, she is not so then I look in the balcony, still no sign of her. I doubt she is on any other room upstairs so I walk downstairs and look inside the bathroom opening the door, nothing. I turn to walk to the kitchen when I see Hazel entering from the backyard, as soon as she sees me she flips me off showing her middle finger. My feet react quickly and I start walking to the backyard, as I walk outside my thoughts are confirmed when I see her crying against the wall, sobbing non stop. My heart immediately drops and the pain start to overwhelm me as I see the girl I love crying because of me, because I hurt her

"Scarlett?" Her head dont move, its still hidden on her hands "Fuck..I..I can explain, please just hear me out. I thought you wer.."

She interrupts me snapping her head to look at me, her face red and puffed eyes " How could you? How could you cheat on me on my birthday? Worse! How could you cheat on me with her!?" She points at the door referring to Evelyn

I pass my hand through my hair tugging hardly "I know it wont make sense but please just hear me.."

"Hear you out for what? So you can fill my head with more lies? To hurt me even more? To make me forgive you for cheating?" She yells and I'm losing my mind, I need her to let me explain

"No! No, fuck babe please..." I rub my face with my hands

"Don't babe me! Shut up I don't want to hear you! Just go" Her voice breaks as she her sobs wreck even more

"It was a mistake I fucking swear to you" I am yelling now

"Doesn't seem like it when you spin her around and kissed her Zayn! I saw everything" She say as she grab the wall to stand up

"I thought she was you!"

"Don't bullshit me" She tries to walk back inside but I stop her

"Please" I beg as I try to reach our for her hand

"Dont" she snaps and takes a step back walking past me into the house, I follow

"Give me two minutes to explain, then you decide if you believe me or you leave me, but please...two minutes" I desperately try to look at her but she avoid my gaze

She sigh and turn to face me "You are drunk Zayn, I wont talk to you right now when you cant even think straight"

"I can think straight enough to know I love you with all my heart and that I would never hurt you in purpose"

She ignore my comment "Im going. You will sober up and it'll give you enough time to think of a lie to cover up what you did" She walks to the door and Hazel pass past me following her. Im not letting her go, not like that, not thinking I cheated on her for some reason because I would never do that to Scarlett and I cant risk to lose her when I tried so hard to have her

I cant and I wont let every single moment we shared, every single kiss we had go to the trash for this. Yes I know I fucked up badly tonight but I acted before I realised my actions and I ended up kissing a girl I would never consider kissing and hurting my girlfriend, betraying all the trust she had in me and all what I did to let her see that being in love wasn't so terrible after all, but with what happened today she is perhaps considering never talking to me again