Catch My Love

Chapter 34

*Zayn pov*

Im still hovering over Scarletts small body, our breathes had slow down long time ago but we are just cuddling, im hearing her heart beat and my stomach tingles thinking about what we had just done, how she let me touch her in a way no other guy has, how she trust me enough to let me touch her in that way but putting it all together it shows the love she has for me , and I for her. I could lay with her all day in my bed, just wrapped around each other talking about the most random things, hearing her laugh about anything she finds funny and witnesing all of it.

My head is in her chest and her hands are caressing my hair in a very calming way, unfortunately today is a school night so she will be leaving soon, after spending a great day with her I just wished she would stay the night with me. I lift my chin and kiss her chest, she smiles down at me and I bring up my hands to touch her cheek

"Hey" I say

She giggles "Hi"

"I love you" I whisper, she can hear me clearly

"The feeling is mutual" She smiles

"I dont think so, I love you more" I say

She stays silent watching me as I have my eyes glued to hers, she sighs and say

"You know what?" She asks

"Tell me" I lift my body so im on my elbows

"When we started this thing between us, like from the very start when we kissed in your balcony I was so unsure and afraid of what would happened next, I was always wondering where in your mind you saw us as the days passed because I was sure I wasnt going to be your fuck buddy or friends with benefits because I know how messy those kinds of relationships end but as the time passed and I get to know more of you and I started liking you even more but as always I held myself back to ignore my feelings for you to avoid any painful feelings after. I had never been kissed by a guy like you did, or heard someone say those nice things to me and when I think back to Erics situation I knew we werent anything he was just my best friend but that changed as soon as he tried to make a move on me and since then I was terrified about the idea of letting myself develop feelings for someone and ending up in the same situation I did with Eric, I know it seems like im over reacting about what happened but it was such a horrible thing for me, all the trust I had him, everything was gone in a matter of seconds and it hurt me and pain me, but most of all it made me feel angry with myself for letting people in, to get them to know me so they can hurt me even more. At first I was trying to keep my distance from you, but that didnt worked because I always found myself telling you about me and spending lots of time with you, and with you being you..."

She takes a deep breathe and I smile at her, Ive been smiling since she started talking ".. you managed to turn transparent my fears as you slip through me, you somehow made your way to my heart in such a little time, I would say its crazy to be in our situation in a month or so of knowing each other but as my mom said once, "love doesnt depend on time, If you feel love at the week of knowing someone, let it be. Dont extend your feelings and dont demand to not feel it in your mind when your heart has already felt it"" She makes a pause when she quotes her mothers words

"So here I am, a month and a little longer later laying in bed with you after an amazing night, letting you see through me like no one else have, letting you hold me in your arms, letting you kiss me and over it all letting myself to love you and show you how much you mean to me, how you have changed my life making me see it in a better way, and owing you for the constant happiness I feel when I have you with me" She stops talking and her eyes are looking at mine, waiting for any reaction from me

I get off of her body and roll to lay next to her, my head resting in my palm as my elbow support me from the bed, Im looking down at her and her eyes are still on mine, she is beating her lip as ive get to identify as a nervous action