Catch My Love

Chapter 40

*Scarlett pov*

The minutes pass agonizingly slow and I still haven't move from my previous position in my bed, facing up the ceiling. My head is a mess right now and with the less sense I have right now, I'm trying to figure things out. I know what I want, I know I want to forgive him and run back in his arms but in the other hand I don't want this to become some sort of ritual where one of us fuck things up and hurt the other one even if it’s by 'accident' and then we get back together like nothing happened.

I don't want to leave him and I won’t because I love him too much and that’s exactly why I was hurting so badly, because he have my heart and everything he does affects me deep inside, fortunately the great majority are really good things that always make my heart warm up, like his charming side or when he kisses me and hugs me, that feeling I've been growing too attached to is what keeps me going in this relationship

I trust Zayn with all I've got, I trust him in a way I've never trust anyone, not even Hazel but its somehow different because the kind of trust I have in Hazel it’s the trust a best friend have to another but with Zayn, there’s love involve and its more intense because with the trust we both lay on each other it will depends on the path of our relationship and how well we get along. He thinks that for last night I don't trust him anymore, that’s not true though because after all, even in his desperation of me believing him about what happened last night and when he expose his feelings to me it gives me assurance of what he feels for me, how upset he got when I rejected him and denied to hear a word from him and his voice message he sent me this morning, I see he tries to make me happy and to make sure I never doubt his feelings towards me, and I hope he knows that I won’t give up on us when there’s a fight between or when we have our lows

Taking a deep breathe I grab my phone one once again and dial his number again hoping this time he picks up the phone. With tremble fingers the phone in my hand is being squeezed as I hear the rings on the other line. I’m about to hang up when a husky voice speaks up

"Scar?" I hear his voice say, my heart leaps in my chest as he says my name

"Hi" I’m nervous all of sudden

"How..how are you?" He asks

"I’ve been better" I sigh

"Being honest with you this has been the worst 12 hours of my entire life" He says through the phone

"Yeah well you brought this up upon yours..." I stop talking before I finish the sentence but it’s enough for Zayn to figure what was I going to say, I didn’t intend to sound rude but it came as an impulse

"...I-I’m sorry" I clear my throat

"It’s alright, I deserve it" He chuckle trying to ease the tension

"But still, I’m sorry I shouldn't have been so harsh to you yesterday, I didn't knew how to react and I was hurting..." Him calling my name make me stop mid-sentence

"Scar, listen to me, stop apologizing because the one who should be doing it is me, not you alright? You have all the right last night to act the way you did, I was the one who hurt you and I am the one responsible to mend this" He say

"From your call I suppose you heard the uh voice message?" He asks again

"Oh um yes I did" I smile even if he can’t see me

"What do you think?"

"I believe you, It still doesn’t change the fact you kissed her and I’m still confused on how you could’ve confuse me with Evelyn you know, last time I checked were nothing alike" I sit on my bed and rest my head against the recliner