I wrote a letter 2 years ago
About how I died and took my life.
There were people I wanted to forgive but never could.
This heart is now made of driftwood12 years of being bullied and laughed at.
I had enough.
What was the point of going through all this stuff?
I sit in the attic and cry alone.Holding your picture that you gave me
3 years ago.
June 16 the day you took your life.
The day I wept and cried all night.
That night I took a knife and slit my wrist.
Hoping to never breathe or love again...June 16, 2015 I sat alone inside my home.
I wrote a letter saying goodbye.
Telling you why I committed suicideI'm sorry mom and I'm sorry Dad.
Im sorry for causing the fights.
For causing the problems that I hear every night.
I didn't know life could get this bad.
I have no hope, no reason to live.
All I had to offer and all I had to give.
Was taken away in a flash.I'm sorry my sisters for what I've done.
I've always loved you.
But I started to run.
Now with this gun I have to my head.
I'm gonna pull the trigger and then I'll be dead.Away i will fly into the night.
When you come home
I will be out of sight.
I have a noose in my closet.
And a blade in my hand.
If the gun doesn't go off this is my plan.It's 11:47 the time that you left.
I got left here alone inside of this mess.
Just thinking and crying alone in my room.
Blood all over the floor.I slide the blade across my wrist again and again.
Blood drops to the floor
Like the bottom of the sea floor.
I can't do it again.There's nothing inside
No love
No mercy
And no where to run and hide.11:49 I saw your ghost.
You told me "this isn't you."
You can have hope.I couldn't for a year.
I layed in my bed and cried myself to sleep.
Then I posted on Facebook that there's a way out.
That I wouldn't leave.
I said don't ever doubt me.My suicide letter is still in my house.
Just waiting and hoping to be taken out.
I'm sorry I never told you before.
When I met you.
You were my new open door.I found love
And found hope
I found someone I could love to the end of my days.
And I'm just trying to help you to not go away
![](https://img.wattpad.com/cover/97121230-288-k679661.jpg)