Endless Darkness | harry styles *completed*

Chapter 34

(SaimaMiah / luke hemmings)

Cally~

After Harry and I had our 'discussion' I got to thinking. Not of him, but about Niall. When he bought me McDonald's and he hugged me and told me how much he loved me, it broke me. I don't love him as much as he returns to me and I don't think we're supposed to be together, and maybe that's the reason why we broke up. But, of course that's not the reason why he thought we did. He thinks we broke up because of him and Tori. I even thought that's why we broke up. But that's not the reason why. We're just not compatible.

I don't want to break his fragile heart again, though. Maybe if I persuade him in to thinking we're not meant to be that will be enough for him not to shut down like the last time. But I don't even know if he really did that. That's what he told me but would he lie to me? I would think no.

But what's really irking me is what Harry was going to tell me earlier. He was trying to play it off like it wasn't important but I know it was. His actions tell me it was. He was fidgeting a little, not looking directly at my eyes, just all the things you would do if you weren't telling someone the truth.

Was he going to tell me something about Niall? Something about himself? Or something about me? These thoughts reel in my head until I go to sleep but the dreams are just the same as being awake. Niall crying himself to sleep at night, Harry pulling at his hair in his bedroom, and me at the computer, looking so naïve about the world around me.

It's Saturday and I have absolutely no idea what to do! I think I heard Harry talking to the phone to someone about tonight. Something about drinking? Or atleast that's what I hear Harry say.

"Hey, Harry. Is Niall going to be with you tonight? I have nothing else better to do so I might as well thought I'd hang out with you."

"Yeah... but we're going to this,"

"I know, I want to come." I urge.

"Alright, but this is a college party; hardcore drinks, crazy people, and loud music. You up for that?" I nod my head fast and he continues on.

"Fine, but Niall better not blame me for your shit." Harry groans.

I have never drank before, let alone been to a real party, but I am up for it. I am just afraid of all the conclusions that can come from them. From rape to hangovers, it's a terrible mess. Trust me, I have seen plenty of Lifetime movies in my past time.

"I'm not waiting all damn day for you Cally, get your ass down here!" Harry yells from downstairs as I make the finishing touches to my outfit. I decided to go casual on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and converse but my hair is curly, more like wavy. I ruffle my hair one last time before Harry startles me with another one of his loud screams.

I decend the stairs and Niall stand down the hall in the doorway. I half-fake smile and walk towards him.

"Hi." I hug him. He sniffs my shoulder.

"Did you put perfume on? You smell like..." he sniffs again, "Coconuts?" So what I put some spray on, I just felt like it!

"Yeah...." I blush a little as Niall walks me out of the doorway. Maybe I do still love him but just can't seem to find it? He doesn't have that much of affect on me like before but some little things hit me like our first date at Olive Garden. That's when Harry and Tori interrupted out date..

Niall pulls his car at the curb a few blocks down from the party. I can already hear the loud music and screams of drunk laughter from here. I should have brought some earplugs if I knew it was going to be this loud. Not literally, but that's how loud it is!

Niall locks the car and we meet up with the rest of the gang, except for Maddie and Liam. I am guessing they didn't want to be a part of this madness.

I am starting to have second thoughts as we walk to the gate of a frat house. What if I get drugged? What if I lose Niall? What if I end up throwing up on someone due to me having too much to drink? These questions going through my mind seem ridiculous but it can happen. Anything could happen...

A/N

Honestly, I didn't put a lot of effort in this and I'm so sorry! I just wanted to get a chapter out for you guys so there.

I know I keep using the same damn excuse but it's true. And also, today I had three tests(kinda like finals but less serious and all) and it was hectic.

QOTC/How long would you like for me to write this story? The full one hundred pages, less than that?

I know it's usually the writer's choice and all but I would like to know your guys' opinions. It would tell me how much you like the story. Also, I'm writing a new book! It's a secret until I actually figure out the first few chapters. I'm co-writing(kind of) with HARRY07STYLES. Go check her out!