Forgive Me Father- On Hiatus

This Is Me

"Jedi!"

I sighed hearing my sista call my name. Swear she had me regretting giving her a key to my shit damn near every day.

"Jedidiah!"

She act like my apartment was a two story house or some shit, a nigga lived in a two bedroom, two bath apartment so iont know why she act like I can't hear her ass from any room.

After pausing my game of 2K, I sat my controller down finally deciding to answer her. "What girl?"

As soon as the words left my mouth, she appeared in the doorway of my bedroom. "I know you heard me asshole but anyways-" she rolled her eyes as she continued. "-guess who the fuck I just ran into"

I frowned, wondering who had her so hype. Her nostrils were flared and her arms were folded as she glared at me awaiting a response. "Uhhh, who?"

"My bestfriend and yo ex girlfriend, that's who"

Ain't no way she could be talking bout- "Justice?"

She nodded damn near knocking the air out of me at her revelation. "Don't fuckin' lie to me Faith-"

"Why would I lie about some shit that hurt both of us Jedi?"

What..

The..

Fuck..

"What the- did she say something to you?" She nodded causing my nostrils to flare. "Fuck she say?"

"I barely gave her ass time to talk, I had to let her know about herself and how fucked up she was."

She sighed, walking further into the room. "She did say she wanted to talk to you though."

My face contorted into a frown, "the fuck for? Like what the fuck bro, she ain't have shit to say to me before but now after her ass done disappeared for three damn years, she wanna talk to me?" I shook my head, Boogie was my baby without doubt. Thought she'd be the one to never leave a nigga, but I guess everybody had enough at some point.

Girl was my crush for the longest and of course a nigga flirted with her but outta respect for my sista, she kept turning me down until finally when we were 15 and 16 she let a nigga rub on her booty without pushing me off.

I smiled at the thought.

I missed her ass.

"-say you got her number?"

"Damn nigga, just cut me off"

Mushing her head back, I stood from the bed and side stepped to dodge her hit. "Chill out, you got it though?"

"Asshole," she mumbled smoothing down her already slick ponytail. "But no I don't, I'm not ready to talk to her yet. My emotions still too deep right now"

That made me frown, "so you not willing to be friends with her no more?"

She shrugged, "who knows, maybe after we talk. I know if I talk to her now though, I'll just be speaking outta anger"

"Shit, so what? Let her ass know what she did. You was 'posed to be her bestfriend, cuss her ass out and make up."

"Maybe, where you bout to go?" She asked, changing the subject and watching me step into my shoes.

"Swerve"

She sighed, standing to her feet. "Jedi, why do you keep doing this, huh?"

Here we go, I thought while closing my closet door and turning to face her. "Mani has to eat, she's growing and she needs things. I need things, you and ma need things, and these every two weeks of getting paid ain't enough to support all of us, G. Plain and simple, I never have more on me than what I'm going to sell so if the laws pull me over it ain't like a nigga gone get much time."