Moving On (A Sidemen Fanfiction)

II

*Simon's POV*

"Just because you miss someone doesn't mean you need them back in your life. Missing is just part of moving on." I listened to her intently but the statement still didn't make any sense. Well, it did, but it wasn't true. Not for me anyways. "What about if you've missed someone for a year?" I asked, looking into her deep green eyes. When I saw her mind racing behind her eyes and she didn't have an answer, I spoke again. "Time is supposed to heal everything, right?" It felt good to vent to someone, especially a new face who didn't know the story. Because the guys would all pat me on the back and say to give it more time. But I had given it all the time I was willing to give. I was ready to move on, but I simply couldn't seem to erase my memory of her. "Time heals all wounds, yes. But when you lose someone who is a part of who you are, no amount of time can erase the scar." She smiled at me and I found my thoughts drifting further and further away from the sadness and emptiness in my heart. Her smile did that. And that dimple on the side of her face made a smile of my own come to my face. "Atta boy." She patted my hand with her own when she saw my smile. "Could I maybe get your number?" I asked as I looked at the back of my hand that she had just touched. It felt tingly and kind of like it was on fire. I remembered the first time the girl I lost a year ago had touched me and how it had felt the same way. Mackenzie's touch seemed different in a way, almost better. But then I was sad again. That was also a problem when I tried to move on, I compared every single girl I came across to her. And none were like her. None even came close. Until now. "Yeah sure." Her voice snapped me out of my thoughts and I hurriedly got my phone out of my pocket. I had two missed calls and a text from Josh but I ignored them and handed her my phone to put her number in. I watched her as she did so and the thoughts I had just a moment ago seemed to disappear. Was I being crazy or was she causing me to be happy? I mentally rolled my eyes. No one had caused me to be happy by doing absolutely nothing since she's left. You're just tired, Simon. I knew I was tired. I was absolutely exhausted. She slid me my phone and the kettle went off behind her. And we sat in silence as she began fixing some tea. I decided to reply to Josh's text while she was busy.

Simon:
I'm alright and I've got a ride home. Need to talk to you when I get there

I had to tell at least on the of the guys about Mackenzie and the way she made me happy by just being there. I didn't even know her last name, but there was just this feeling that I got when I looked at her that I didn't want to go away. I needed to get someone else's opinion on it, just to see if I was actually crazy or not. She asked me a few questions about how I liked my tea which I answered in short answers. Once I had my tea I wrapped my hands around the warm mug and blew into the liquid. My phone vibrated on the counter and it caused us both to look down. "Must be nice to have friends." She said sarcastically. I smiled up at her from my phone. "Like you don't have any." She shrugged. "I work too much and people are arseholes to say the least." She said. "Work too much? As a bartender?" "That's more of a side job to occupy my time when I'm not actually working. I'm a model otherwise." She explained. "That sounds fun." I said as I looked at the message from Josh.

Josh:
May I ask what about?

Simon:
I've met someone.

"Why does that sound sarcastic?" She asked, laughing lightly. "Once you get to know me better you will know I am always a sarcastic prick but I was being genuine." I said, smiling. Once I sad it I was very aware of the fact that I said we would hang out more in the future and I kind of regretted it. What if after tonight I realized that this feeling I had when I was with her was actually nothing at all? "Seems convincing." She rolled her eyes playfully and took a sip of her tea. My phone vibrated again and she glanced down at it. "It's my roommate." I shrugged. "Is he worried? I can take you home now if you want." She put her tea done and I shook my head. "I'll finish my tea first." She gave me a small smile again. "Good. I'm enjoying your company."