Moving On (A Sidemen Fanfiction)

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*Simon's POV*

I watched silently from the couch as Mackenzie slept. She had fallen asleep about an hour ago and I made sure to keep an eye on her, just to make sure. She was asleep on the floor, where she had laid down since the couches were full. I offered her my spot but she declined. "Are you ever going to ask her out?" JJ whispered from beside me, making me look away from her quickly. "I - uh - I don't know." I said truthfully. So much could go wrong if I did that. But then again, so much could go right. "I think you should." He said, looking back at the movie, no longer interested in my love life. I looked back at Mackenzie just in time to see her cough lightly before taking a deep breath, almost like she was holding her breath beforehand. It was her first night out of the hospital and she had fell asleep without her oxygen, which was one reason I kept watching her. It made me nervous but I figured if we were all here with her nothing too bad could happen. "Do you think that we should take her to bed?" Vik asked suddenly. I looked up from her to him to see him already looking at me. "Yeah. Simon do that." Josh said, waving his hand but never taking his eyes off the screen. Freya was tucked under his arm, sleeping peacefully too. Lewis was sat on the other side of me, me separating him and JJ because they argued over Arsenal for about half an hour. "Yeah, Simon. Go take your bird to bed so I can have a go at this fucker." Lewis joked, reaching behind me to give JJ's shoulder a slight shove. JJ laughed, trying to remain quiet. "You little shit." JJ rolled his eyes. I slowly stood up, my joints aching from being in the same position for so long. "Lewis, make yourself useful and help him." I heard JJ say behind me as I scooped up Mackenzie in my arms, her blanket still wrapped around her. Mackenzie stirred slightly, finally resting her head against my chest as a small cough came from her lips. Lewis laughed as he grabbed her phone and other things, flipping JJ off before following me out of the room. "So are you two fucking or what?" He asked bluntly as we climbed the stairs. "Lewis." I warned, but giving in to the smile tugging at my lips anyways. "C'mon, mate. We all see how you look at her." He said, laughing lightly. "And what way is that?" I asked. He scoffed, a laugh following it immediately. That was the thing about Lewis, he could never be serious. Much like JJ. Which is why the two got on so well and also why they both were always arguing, because a joke would go too far. "You give her the 'fuck me' eyes." He said as he opened her bedroom door. "Shut the hell up, Lewis." I said, rolling my eyes. But I couldn't help but let out a small chuckle. I placed Mackenzie down on the bed carefully, making sure she was still covered up. I debated waking her up to ask if she wanted her oxygen or not, but gave in and gave her a small shake to wake her up. Lewis was gone now, already moving on to the next conversation. "What?" She mumbled, her eyes still closed. I was sat on the side of her bed as I leaned over her slightly. Her eyes slowly fluttered open when I didn't speak. And I couldn't bring myself to form the right words so I found another excuse to have woken her up. "I figured you didn't want to sleep in skinny jeans." She flicked the blanket off of her, stretching as she did so. I slowly stood up off of the bed. But I really didn't ever want to leave. "Thanks for bringing me up." She mumbled as she slowly climbed out of bed. When she stood up she looked up at me and I looked down at her, getting lost in her green eyes. Her eyes were beautiful. They were always so full of emotion. And I tried to decipher whatever it was she was feeling now. "Can I do something?" I heard myself whisper. She nodded slowly and I stepped closer, cupping her face in my hands and connecting our lips. Kissing her was all that had been on my mind since Christmas, since the last time we kissed. And when she kissed back again, just like on Christmas, a wave of relief washed over me. I found myself gently pushing her forward until her back was pressed against the door. And she let me. She was the first to pull away, breathing heavily and unevenly. "Sorry." She mumbled, smiling. I shook my head, tucking a strand of hair that had fallen from her braid behind her ear. "Don't apologize." We spent the next moments staring at each other, both of us thinking. "What are we?" She finally asked. Do it. Confess your love for her. "I - uh - I don't know." "Well what do you want to be?" I took a small step backwards, creating some space between us. She stayed where she was, staring up at me as she waited. "Honestly?" I asked. "Of course." She nodded. I felt a nervous feeling in my stomach as I thought about rejection and heartbreak. But I quickly dismissed it. Mackenzie was different, she wouldn't leave. "I like you. A lot. And I wouldn't mind being with you." I cut myself off and I finally broke her gaze, looking down to the floor before looking up again. "But what?" She pushed me to continue. "I dunno. I trust you, I really do. I don't know why I'm hesitant." I ran a hand through my hair, my heart already feeling so much lighter now that I had told her how I felt. "I like you too, Simon." She said with a small smile. She didn't feel the need to reassure me she wasn't like my ex like she had in the past. She didn't tell me that my wariness was unnecessary. She just trusted me to trust her. Fuck it. "Let's go on a date then. Tomorrow?" She nodded, her mouth turning up into a smile. "I'd like that."

A/N
Cringe.