Immortals

The Sex Talk

Lola:

I follow my best friend into the kitchen. She looks nervous, panicky, and instantly I wonder what happened to her. She's normally calm and collected, and hardly ever worries, unlike me. My anxiety kicks into overdrive. "Selena, what is it? What happened?" I ask, forcing myself to calm down. She turns around and wraps her arms around me in a huge hug, something she's always done when she needs comfort. I wrap my arms back around her and hold her for a moment.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" I ask, forcing my tone to be gentle and soothing. "I slept with Phil last night," she whimpered, stepping back to look at me. My anxiety falls away, replaced with relief. "That's a good thing," I say, sounding puzzled. Her hands drift down to my stomach. "We didn't use a condom. I didn't think of it at the time, but two weeks ago, when I went to see my doctor, he had me stop my birth control because it gave me headaches. We didn't have any protection," she says, looking down at the floor.

"It's just...I might be pregnant and Phil and I aren't even officially together. I don't regret anything...but I have a bad feeling about this," she whimpers. I wrap her up in a brief hug again. It's at that moment that Phil walks into the kitchen, a look of slight concern on his face. "Talk to her, she needs you," I mouth to him, letting her go. He nods and moves to stand next to her. I exit the kitchen, giving them some privacy, and pad over to Dan, sitting next to him on the couch.

He's on his laptop, and before looking; I know that he's on Tumblr. Tumblr can change your life, and not necessarily for the better. A quick glance confirms my suspicions. "Selena and Phil slept together," I blurt out, before I can stop myself. Dan looks up at me, shock painted on his face in an almost comical manner. He sits the computer down on the couch and turns to face me.

"Are you kidding me?" he asks, incredulous. I shake my head. "They didn't have protection either. Selena's worried that she's pregnant," I murmur, glancing down at the ground, realizing I probably shouldn't tell him because it's not my place, but telling him anyway because I'm worried and I need him.

He freezes. "Wait. We didn't have protection either," he says. "We're vampires. I don't think female vampires can get pregnant," I say softly, and in that moment I want to be able to have that so bad that it hurts, a small, sharp ache deep inside of me. I think he knows, because he pulls me onto his lap and wraps his arms around me tightly. We just sit there and cuddle, both of us wishing that we wouldn't have to spend eternity alone. I always wanted children, but I had always thought of them as some far off fantasy in the distance. Now, with a realness that was almost unbearable, I realized it wouldn't happen.

My thoughts turn to Selena, and my anxiety returns. How is she doing? How is Phil taking this? I feel slightly sick from the anxiety, and I think it's strong enough that Dan can feel how desperately I need a distraction, because he glances at me briefly before pressing his lips tightly against mine. I kiss back, but only briefly, pulling back before he can deepen the kiss. "You need a distraction," he whispers, then kisses me again.

Selena:

I'm on the verge of panic when Lola walks out of the room to give Phil and me some privacy. "Selena, what's wrong?" Phil asks, giving me a concerned look. In that moment, I realize just how much I love him. "Phil, we didn't have a condom last night. And I quit my birth control about two weeks ago. I could be pregnant. And I'm not ready for that," I whisper, forcing my breathing to remain steady. He tilts my chin up, so that he's looking into my eyes, and pulls me to him, wrapping his arms around me in a comforting hug. "Hey, it's okay," he says, kissing my forehead. "If you are, our child will be the most loved child there is."

I bury my face against his chest, calmed by this. He holds me tighter, which was always something that calmed me down when I was distressed. Part of me had known that he would react that way, but still I had worried. We stand like that for a moment, and slowly, I'm calming down. I'm not as worried, though I'm still concerned that there might be a small life growing inside of me, purely by accident. "Phil?" I say, after a moment, pulling back to look up at him. "Yes?" he asks, giving me a small smile. "I, uh...do you want to go out?" He grins, and I can tell he's trying not to laugh. "I thought we were already together. Christ, Selena, I mean, we slept together," he says, but in a light and airy tone. I grin back at him. "We did. But I want it to be official," I mumble, kissing him on the cheek. He moves his hand up to cup my face. "Well, consider it official," he whispers before kissing me.