Thoughts of going to America made me sick.It was a thursday night, I was in my room sitting inside my little box, while staring at my opened wardrope not knowing which clothes to pack in.
Apparently the time to surprise aunt Nelly and her family was few hours away, dad suggested that we all take the weekend off to archive that and tomorrow was the journey day.don't
get me wrong, cause it ain't like I don't fancy the whole suprise idea, it was actually cool, after all we were glad about aunt Nelly's child adoption, who wouldn't? and she just wasn't getting any younger.but the thing is ,I've got cold feet, cause Rachel died in that country and it was all my fault, now, going there only made it hurt real deep.right now I'd give anything to have Rachel back.
Although as a family, we decided to move on but it just wasn't easy, most times we just couldn't hold back our tears especially when we ate her favourite meal, or drank her favourite drink .
It was heart breaking.
Well I had no choice it was getting late and I'd really hate to be the black sheep who wasn't prepared for the journey.
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Uhmm, I wouldn't say I knew her so well, but the photos and words had given me an idea of what I'd be expecting.
I zipped up my bag and placed it on my reading table.
Apparently I was done parking.and as a member of the Jack's family I also couldn't wait to meet aunt Nelly and her family.the only problem was that they lived in the same country that took away Rach."may her soul rest in perfect peace".
Well I guess mr Jack and his wife were not only going to surprise aunt Nelly but they were also going to mourn their daughter.of course they missd Rach so much, am pretty much sure they just needed to go back there once again, "hmmm" I only pray they'd be okay.I guess the journey just wasn't so easy for everyone of us but we had to go anyway.I wish she didn't die.If only she made it out of that human zoo alive and graced the wonderful party we had prepared so much for,then we wouldn't be living this way.
She would have probably met her little twin brother who waited twenty two years before showing up.you shall forever be engraved in my heart dear Rach.
I walked out of my room and headed towards the dinning for dinner.but before I got there everyone was sitted except me.
"God bless the food in Jesus name" prayed mr Jack and we all echoed an Amen, we had fried rice and chicken with strawberry hollandia for dinner.I bet Rach would have given anything to have this meal.it wasn't just the meal but it was her favourite meal and hollandia was her favourite drink.oh God! I wish u spared her life.
Instantly I lost my appetite and excused myself of the table
"Andrew I hope your okay?"mr Jack questioned.
"Am fine"I immediately responded but I believed my response wasn't convincing enough, cause kate confirmed it with her words
"I don't think his okay, maybe the meal had a hand in his loss of appetite"I turned around to glance at her properly, then mum asked
"Andrew don't you like the food?"it wasn't just about the food but the person who used to love the food,I removed my glance from kate and fixed it on mrs Jack
"Nothing is wrong with the food, it's perfect."then I turned around to live, suddenly baby jack who was sitting on mom's lap started crying out loud.
I couldn't walk out alone, I quickly rushed towards mrs Jack and collected Jack from her.
" shhhhhh, It's okay dear, stop crying,"I patted his back continously for a while and he stopped crying then I took him out of the dinning.
Sometimes I got shocked.is it just me or does Jack love me so much.he always listened to me.most times if I ain't around and his crying everyone struggles to keep him quiet.well, it's the lord's doing.
"Andrew what's wrong?"a voice questioned.I glanced at Jack who was already asleep on my bed and threw back my glance at the entrance of my room.
"Kate? Is that you"I was terrified, don't know why, but for sone reasons fear gripped me.cause the voice seemed like it's owner was in my room but I didn't even hear a foot step, and I and Jack were the only ones in my room.
"Woaw, my voice has been forgotten"the sound of the voice came closer and closer to my ear but yet I saw no one, although it was indeed familiar, tears began to run down my chick.
"Is it ? could it? No it couldn't"I turned my head to my right, then to my left suddenly
"Yes it is, I miss you Andrew.but am glad God is taking good care of you"
Now it all made sense to me but I still couldn't believe it was happening
"Why did u live me all alone? It's so painful, anytime I think of your death it breaks my heart"I immediately used my blanket to protect Jack who was sound asleep.
"Don't worry I will not harm him, but since my own son does not trust me, I'd better live".her words pierced my heart like a sword.
"Mom, wait.please don't live me, wait"but it was too late her presence had vanished.
"Andrew is everything all right?"I woke up from my dream due to kate's pillow wake up calls.
"Andrew???"I suddenly jumped up from the bed.while Kate reached for Jack who was still asleep.
"Were you having a bad dream?."kate asked as she gently held Jack.
"It seemed so real? So It was actually a dream?" Kate gave me the wierd stare that sort off put me off balance,
" Look at the time Andrew" I turned to look at the wall clock which hanged beside my window and when I saw the time I couldn't believe it, I rubbed my hands through my eyes and fixed a stare at the clock once again but the time didn't change.
"What?"Kate sighed like a nagging wife and walked towards the exit door then she turned to look at me and said
"Hurry up with your shower and when your done showering, pack your bags and come down stairs for break fast, and please I don't want to miss this 8:30 flight because of you so if I were you I'd jump into the shower now".
I still couldn't believe it was morning already, I just left the table and now kate's waking me up? And little Jack crashed with me." Woaw" how cute.I better go and take that shower before oyo becomes my case.but mom! Mom spoke to me for the very first time in a long while.
