Save Me? {Luke Hemmings Fanfic }

Chapter 41

( me: *has full intention of spelling * Chapter
but in reality spells Hatper)
            Emma's POV

it's The morning after last night, I'm still feeling Guilty. I was laying in bed on Josh's back, he was still asleep the time is.
10:25am

" Good morning Babygirl " Josh said in a waking up voice, I smiled

" Good morning Baby " I said smiling and moving off him

" I've got interviews today so.I won't be back till about 6:00 " He said sitting up and reaching for his shirt he left on the end of bed from last night " Emma where's my shirt " He asked chuckling

" On me " I said smiling and laughing

" What happened to yours ? " He said smiling

" well someone threw it last night " I said smiling watching find clothes

" who is he I'll kick his ass " He said joking

" Josh Honey you'll be kicking your own ass " I said walking to him and patting his shoulder

" Oh yeah, well you look good in my clothes" He said smiling and kissing me.

me and Josh got of the shower, it was definitely interesting showering with someone. I got my clothes on, I wore A baby pink crop top tank top and baby pink a sheer lacey long sleeve crop top, along with some High waisted white shorts and black ripped tights along Combat boots. I did light makeup, I grabbed my phone going though Instagram and replying to my mother's texts

From mom💐
hey I know your with Josh just remember take you meds you took them in a long time and you need them. Love you see ya

oh shit I completely forgot about my meds, I went to my bag and grabbed them, I Have one depression and one for anxiety. I grabbed me some water and I heard my phone go off, I closed the bottles and sat the pills down.

I jumped on the bed checking the Instagram notification.

Lukehemmings just posted a photo.

I clicked on it.. regretting it almost immediately after seeing the picture, it was a picture of Luke an Ava in front of a beach, The caption saying

" Took my baby to San Francisco for the week. Love you beautiful 💋 "

I felt Angry.
I felt Hurt.
I felt Numb.
I felt Betrayed.
I felt unwanted.

I started crying, I hated him, I hated her, I hated everything. I stood up after throwing my phone on the bed.

I hate the way I miss him so much.
I hate the way I can't forget.
I hate the way I miss everything about him.

I look at the bottles pills. I grabbed and poured both bottles in my hand. I looked at the two handfuls of pills that could kill me, I shut my eyes

"Goodbye..." I said pouring the pills into the toilet and flushing.

I grabbed the empty bottles and threw across the room, I slid down the wall crying, I pulled my knees to my chest and laid my head down crying.

            5 hours later
"Emma I'm home" Josh called
I'm still sitting in the spot I was earlier. Oh my God I've been sitting here for 5 hours great, he walked upstairs.

" What are you doing " He said

" Um nothing " I said lying and looking up at him

" have you been crying " He asked

" um kinda" I said standing up.

" why? " He asked

" It's nothing it's stupid and I don't wanna talk about it " I said sighing

" alright " He said standing and walking to the bathroom and then stepping on a pill bottle shit

"shit" I mumbled.

" what's this Emma" He asked picking it up

" N-nothing" I said looking down

" this is your depression pills your not supposed to empty already " He said and finding the other bottle

" Josh it's nothing you to worry about" I said, I can't tell him I'm crying over Luke he'll get pissed

" Nothing?! Your pills are empty and you've been crying what happened?!" He asked clenching the bottles

" I flushed them!" I said about to cry

" why, you need them " He said

" I-i can't tell you " I choking back tears, he looked pissed

" It's Luke isn't it " He said

" N-no " I said lying and crying

" Emma I know when your lying " He said sighing

" Josh I- " I try say

" Damnmit Emma! why can't you forget him" He screamed throwing the bottles.  making me Jump

" I've tried Josh! I want nothing more then move on But I can't! " I yelled back, I'm not taking this bullshit tonight.

" You haven't tried " He said

" You don't know that " I said

" If you tried like you say, you wouldn't be crying over An EX! Boyfriend! " He yelled

" An EX boyfriend who loved me and who got though alot which is way F*cking more then you've ever done" I yelled just a bit louder he got in my face.

" so I don't love you " He said in a low voice

" it sometimes doesn't feel like that " I said crossing my arms.

" I do love you Emma " He said.

he moved my hair out the way of my neck, Shit, He placed a few kisses there, Shit, and then raised both shirts up and off.

" Josh " I said quietly

" shhh " He said, SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

he took his shirt off and he started kissing me, we kissed he laid me on the bed, he got on top of me.

" I Love you Josh "

" I Love you Emma"

A/N
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next chapter were all going to church.
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