Save Me? {Luke Hemmings Fanfic }

Chapter 89

                      Emma's POV
It's been a week, since I've really slept or ate. I keep have panic attacks and seeing things that aren't there. My mom has caught on to what's going on but she doesn't know all of it.

I mean I'm not crazy, Right?
I cant get out of bed, I don't wanna anything.

"Emma? You okay?" Mom asked me walking into my room.

"Yeah mom I'm fine" I said looking at my window from my bed.

"Do you wanna run to the store with me and Jess?" She asked hopeful.

"Not really, Mom can I just lay here?" I asked.

" sure love you" She said.

"Love you to" I said back as she walked out of my room.

I hated seeing her like this, but I can't let her deal with my problems. Hell, I can't even deal with my problems.

I got out of bed and sat down and grabbed the box from under my bed.

This box is filled with mine and Luke's Pictures. I opened it and seen multiple pictures of us. I picked up where laying on his bed, it doesn't show faces just him holding me, with his arms around me with his grey bed sheets covering us. Another one is us at the beach at San Francisco.

San Francisco was the best time of my life, I would give everything to go back, to have him back.

I just want my dream life. A happy family, someone who loves me, completely free of my demons. But that will never happen.

I grabbed my phone and connect it to my loud speaker and play I'm With You by Avril Lavigne.

"Isn't anyone trying to find me? Won't somebody come take me home? It's a damn cold night, tryin' to figure out this life" I sung along with the song.

"Take me by the hand, Take me somewhere new, I dont know who you are by I'm.. I'm with you!" I sang out.

I cried listening to this song and the next which was 'Burning Brigdes' By Bea Miller.

I can't take this anymore, I'm emotionally drained and sleepy. Nothing works anymore. I know alot of people look at what I'm going through and think 'all this over an Ex Boyfriend' 'drama queen'

But those people don't know the half of it, what I'm going through is years of hell and abuse falling on my shoulders, along with losing Luke, who was my saving grace, my one good thing out this horrible existence I have to, unwillingly, call my life. Luke is, was I should say. My one reason for staying on that Earth as long as I have, but I've losted that reason. And I'm not afraid of what I decide to do next.......

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A/N
YALLL!!!
WHATS EMMA GONNA DO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
I MEAN I KNOW BUT YALL.... OHHHH YALL GONNA HAVE TO WAIT!
BE PREPARED FOR CHAPTER 90!!!!