Save Me? {Luke Hemmings Fanfic }

Chapter 90

|The Ending. Part One|
Emma's POV

Another sleepless night, another horrible day. My mom is at work, she's getting off early so we can go have fun. To be honest I haven't the sunlight in about two weeks, the curtains in my room stay close and the light stays off. My mind hurts and the voices keep getting louder, screaming inside my head.

I can't stop it. I've started cutting again every night now. Laying in bed crying holding onto Mox while Dutch lays on the other of me, snoring loud. I got a notification, I leaned down towards the end of my bed and grabbed it. It's for Instagram, and it was a picture of Luke and Ava kissing and another of them cuddling.

The caption saying
"My world, my life, my everything ❤"

Then he f*cking commented on it saying "your my world to babygirl❤❤"

I jumped off my bed and walked over to the corner of my room and slammed my phone against the wall, for sure cracking it, but I didn't stop till the phone was in pieces and my was bleeding from the glass digging into my hand. I was scream crying, my phone completely busted it and scattered around the corner of my room.

Wet, cold tears streamed down my face as I paced around my room in circles gripping the sides of my head to try and stop the voices.

I can't take this anymore, I'm done with everything.

I slid my shoes on kissing my dogs heads and hugging them, they were upset and confused.

"I'm gonna miss you both boys" I said to them hugging them once more.

They whine and whimper, I hate leaving them but I have to for my sanity.

I walked out of my room, crying so hard full blown sobbing, I passed the kitchen but I went back to write a note for mom.
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Dear Mom,

I'm sorry, I tried, I really tried to get better. But I'm exhausted from running in circles and not getting better, this isn't your fault, no one's fault but my own. I love you so much and I know you'll get over me being gone. Take care of Dutch and Mox, Tell Amity I love her, don't let her turn out like me. I've tried so hard to make it but I can't, there's nothing that can be done anymore, no amount of Pills, Booze, sex, or therapy is gonna make me better. I know you don't want me to do this Mom but it's what's best. Think of it this way, I'll be with My dad and he'll keep me safe. Tell John I'm sorry I was a pain in the ass and I'm glad he's done what's he's done for us for you.

Don't miss me, Remember me please.

I cried as I finished the note, I couldn't leave her in the dark about what happened to me.

Time to go.

Wait one more note...

Dear Luke,

I never stopped loving you, I said that so you wouldn't get hurt, Luke I feel bad for the choice I've made but I can't do it, without you I don't have the urge to keep going along with this meaningless life. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'll always be with you, I'll always love you to the moon and back. Don't be sad over me please don't.

I Love You Luke.

Love your babygirl.

I kissed the note and grabbed my keys. Once I got in the car I drove to the nearest bridge, doing close to 90 miles per hour.