Since you left

Your words

Have you ever been so amazed to see the difference between you and someone else?

Yeah me too.

Today I witnessed something that just locked everything in.

"I was never enough."
Right baby? I wasn't enough for you.

Yeah I admit, I never enjoyed you talking to other females. But if they knew the past we had, do you think they'd enjoy it too?

You were right.

Why did I stick by you if I was never ready to let that go?

Why?

I ask myself that a lot now.
Maybe then I wouldn't be as hurt as I am today.

Don't you think?

I'm a bitch aren't I? For massaging your sprained ankle.

I'm a bitch aren't I? For making you that smoothie when your teeth were pulled.

I'm just a bitch aren't I? For getting upset with you for breaking my heart because of your "friends."

I'm the biggest bitch for breaking up with you moments later because you were on facetime with another girl for two hours after breaking up with me.

Instead of calling me, making sure I'm okay or that I'm no longer crying, you called your "best friend."

Oh gosh, did I forget to mention that this very best friend was the same girl you were deciding between.

I'm not the kind of girl to be stuck in between with baby. I'm a queen and I knew that back then. I knew I was a queen and deserved better.

So I told you to have her and leave me alone.

Didn't I baby boy?

I told you that. And what happened moments later?

Would you like to embrace our readers?

No?

So shall I?

Yes?

Perfect.

You cried for an hour blowing up my phone begging for forgiveness.
You begged me to still talk with you.
YOU BEGGED ME.
I'd love to share more about this day.
That you know so well.
But our readers don't need to know that.

Do they love?

I took you back for one simple thing. Not because I had cared for you or loved you back then, but because you were the first male I've ever trusted with my past life.

You were my first guy best friend.

My FIRST best friend baby boy.

You told me "I don't want her, I want you."

But you didn't.

You lied.

Why did you have to lie?

Now your words haunt me.

The past and the present.

Those words.

"I don't want her. I want you."

Then your last words.

"I wish I never had anything to do with you. I wish nothing ever happened."