Good night.
I close my eyes but suddenly i feel yoongi hug me tight. But i just closed my eyes.then i can feel he kiss me i open my eyes and respond his kiss. When the kiss is getting passionate and i can feel my heart beat fast.
Yoongi turn himself up above me and the kiss getting rough. He also touched my breast. My can feel the butterfly in my stomach and i feel very nervous. I try to pull over and yoongi release the kiss.
"Why sweetheart? Do you not love me?"
" i can't breathe"
We sit on the bed and look at each other. I can feel the pressure.
"Answer me minah. Are you love me?"
"How about you?"
" Don't ask me questions back. Why don't you answer my question first."
" im not sure"
"I love you sweetheart. I wish you do too."
" i don't know "
"Okay let just sleep"
He lay and cover himself with the comforter. I also lay and i try to sleep.
Maybe he mad.
Is it true he love me?
Or it just his lust?
I don't know.
If i tell him i love him im scared he will play with my heart. I can't imagine he left me or divorce me.
That i think too much. Late in the morning yoongi has hug me then i go to sleep. I pray so i can have him forever.
The next morning i get up. Yoongi was not beside me. I check his car but seen like he already go to work. So i guess maybe he mad with last night.
Its not like i hate him. I just not sure about everything and I scared about any consequences.
I hate myself. I'm not a good wife to him. Tonight I will wait for him.
I want to apologize.
I will tell him i love him too.
Yes i love him and we will happy together.
Tonight we will be together. I'm ready to be one with yoongi. I think he really need it. He is a man we been together for a year now but he never done anything with me. Im his wife but i never be with him.
While waiting for the day end, and yoongi came back home,I read some about having sex because i don't have any experience at all. I have to get ready and be prepared. I want yoongi to knows that i really love him and im ready to be with him.
I take bath and wear a night gown that night. Its 11pm but he haven't came back home. I go to bed and wait. I fall asleep. While im sleeping i can feel yoongi was besides me. He was sleeping quietly i stay close and hug him.
I love him.
Tomorrow i will tell him that i love him too. I hope he not angry anymore.. i will make this marriage happy ending.
Im ready to be with him whatever happen.
Im very sure.
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Everyone, i have write more than this but i check it has been lost last part when my connection is lost. Im very upset actually. Im sorry. I have write an update now. And i work on it. Please stay support. I will end this. But i always make them in bad conditions. Hahaha...
Once again sorry and thanks alot.
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Loved,
MKB
