hey guys, i hope you all are doing good. i'm just trying to make it through life as always, i guess. ugh.
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this is one of my favorite songs.
anyways, my dad has been getting on my nerves lately. he still makes me feel bad about myself. i hate him so much for all the shit he's said and done to me.
but what else can i do? i can only do so much. i can only do so much to try my hardest to ignore him and to try to get myself away from him. music only helps me so much, along with being able to go to my summer program from 10 am - 3 pm twice a week.
school was also seen as an escape, but just like another hell. most of the time i just don't want to live anymore. i don't want to wake up anymore because i have to wake up to this fucked up reality where it feels like nothing won't ever get better. ugh, i hate it all.
i should be happy that it's summer and that i'm done with school. but i'm not happy. i don't feel truly happy. i only feel somewhat happy when i'm around my friends at the summer program. plus, this is my last year doing this. ugh. how am i going to be happy??? i can't deal with this shit.
