depression diary

christmas

   hey guys! i hope you're doing well.

   nothing much has really happened in my life recently. i'm on christmas break so it's kinda been boring as shit but i don't have to deal with school right now so things are kinda okay.

   i got an iphone 6 for christmas, and there are no words to describe how happy this makes me feel. i stopped writing as much let alone going to the wattpad app itself because it would keep closing out on me and i was fed up with it.

   but the app hasn't closed out on me yet, so i'm hoping it doesn't. expect more writing from me if it doesn't give me any problems!

   i'm kinda stupid though but i'll explain why.

   i accidentally had almost gotten my SIM card that came with my iphone thrown away. i didn't really even read directions or anything so i didn't know to keep the envelope itself.

   thankfully my mom wasn't home the one day to burn garbage, so it was still okay.

   i waited 3 days for a SIM card, just to find out it was in my own house. but the important thing is that i learned my lesson from this.

   always read directions. never throw shit away without checking it first.

   my cousin's girlfriend's daughter is up visiting for christmas. my cousin sam, his girlfriend kacy, and her daughter Arianna went to walmart with me and my mom today.

   she's really cool. i see her as a best friend already, even tho she's 19 and in college. we bonded over certain bands and our love for food. on the way home we made a stop at the dollar general and she got some pringles.

   i had a decent day today. but here's where things kinda get stressful.

   i'm kinda really hating myself right now because the stupid bitch i am, i've developed a problem that's procrastinating homework.

   i have an art project that's due not long after i get back from school. like fml. i don't even have that much done. i have so fucking much to do still. tomorrow i swear i'll work on it.

   i keep telling myself that i'll work on it tomorrow or later, etc. well i don't.

   i need to get myself to stop procrastinating and i think the only way to do this is to just do the homework and stuff. like idfk why i do this.

   anyways, i don't really have much else to talk about at the moment so this chapter is coming to an end. hope you all are doing well :-) 💗