depression diary

fucking d o n e .

   my dad was calling me shit. pig, fat, etc.

   i told my mom. she told me just to ignore him. i feel so fucking angry.

   how about you actually say something to him the next time he verbally harasses me, huh MOM?

   i'm so sick of this. i'm the only person who tries to defend myself. no one else is there to stand by my side and help.

i'm honestly so fucking done. i don't want to live if i have to keep going through this bullshit! i'm done.

i told her i feel like i'm gonna kill myself because of this. she didn't say a single thing to me. i'm so angry.

i then said "you won't actually say something until i go and do it" because honestly, this is so true. i'm so angry.

i think i'm about to cry now too. oh well. wouldn't be the first time.

i just feel so angry at my mom, at my dad, at everything. i don't know how to fix these problems. my dad can't be changed unless he's willing to do this himself, which he won't ever be.

my mom just ignores everything. she's the only one who can fix it. fucking done. ugh. i want to tell her to actually fucking do something. i know she's probably scared or something but HONESTLY I NEED HER.

MOM, YOUR DAUGHTER DOESN'T SEE A WAY OUT. SHE WANTS TO FUCKING DIE. SHE CRIES AT NIGHT WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPING.

besides all this, i want to die. because i have school tomorrow and i don't even want to fucking go at all. ugh kill me.

i don't want to live anymore.

also alex pissed me off. done.

i want to die.