depression diary

leaving + inconvenience

   hey guys, i hope you're doing well.

   not much has been happening recently. my grandma is staying with us for a week or so, and she's only been here maybe 3 days now and she's getting on my nerves already.

   my mom pissed me off today at gamestop. i needed $4 to pay for the tax for super mario 3d land for 3ds and a cuphead code card but my mom made me split my $10 bill instead.

   that $10 bill was going towards mario kart 7. i'm still sad that gamestop didn't have mario kart 7 in stock. when we got back in the car my nosey grandma was like "how much did you pay for" and my mom said nothing and my grandma was like "good" like stfu ffs.

   my dad is talking about leaving and has for a while. idk where he'll go, etc. but i asked him if he'd still talk to me and he said he would, so it's not like he's walking out of my life by moving out. but if he doesn't have a phone or whatever then i can't talk to him. so idk what'll happen.

   part of me wants to go with my dad when he leaves. pack a bag and only take the things that are important to me. but i'd have to leave behind my other stuff. and that upsets me.

   but i kinda want to start over stuff wise...

   but idk...

   my dad can be miserable, etc. so idk if i would want to live with him. but maybe he won't be as miserable if he's away from my mom, idk. how do i decide if i decide to go with my dad?