Leaving the Alpha

Chapter 30

Chapter 30:

Sidmin's POV

"CELIST TOLD US THAT WHEN WE GO INTO the Lighthouse that we have to want to go in, that we have to want to go away." I said, standing beside Jordan, "if you want Elena and Jamie to stay, we have them make them not want to go away again."
"How can we do that? Elena seemed almost relived to disappear." said Jordan. Ashton's home was filled with pack members and we all sat together, trying to come up with a brilliant plan. Dunagin's Comet was in a couple of weeks and this shit was starting to get complicated. Elissa sat on one of the temples in Skytown and looked off to the glowing sun and the clouds filled with lightning.  It was a beautiful sight.  Taylor had came and sat down beside her.  Elissa looked at him and said, "I know. I know.  You didn't want to leave.  And I made you.  Im sorry Taylor but you know that we had to.  Martin Ripley is gone now and so is Daniel.  Just stay strong.  Sometimes, people just aren't meant to mean anything to anyone."
        I came out of my vision and looked to my uncle. He knew that I had a vision.  I couldn't believe it though, I didn't want to disappear last time but yet the supernatural world still...suffered. Something wasn't right. "So you guys said that in 1981 one that at least 28,000 wolves died. Did the same thing happen thirty-four years before?"
        "No.  I believe that in 1947 that the number was even more.  We will have to look in the archives."
         "Elena's name was Lauryn then."
"Thank you for that information. Now we know that your last life didn't want to leave.  So that means that if I'm right, if they do make a Sidmin doppelgänger.  All of us are possible victims for the next deaths." If a doppelgänger was made, that would put my life in danger and then either Jordan or I could die.   I hoped I was right, but I couldn't see Elena allowing Jamie to make a doppelgänger of me, she just wouldn't let it happen.  My heart started to break a little, surely Elena wasn't going to let this happen.
Jordan came back to me and said, "are you alright?"
"Yah," I lied, "you're not gonna lose me and I'm not gonna lose you." Meaning the second part, I kissed Jordan and walked away.  I went to look at the pictures of us at the front. Please Elena, don't do this.
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Elena's POV

SO IT WAS CONFIRMED, JAMIE WAS SIDMIN and I's cousin, and his uncle was trying to find a way to make Jamie stay. The only way Jamie could stay is if the he accepted his mate, or his true love in other words. But, when Jamie didn't do that, his father came from our dimension and persuaded them that killing all of the humans would make Jamie stay? It seemed kind of sweet, well sweet that King Isles wanted his son back. 
        "We are going to have to make a doppelgänger of Sidmin, one with his memories but with different emotions.  He will have to think he has to disappear."
        "Are you sure that's a good idea?" I asked.
"I don't think we have much of a choice." he said. Jamie rose his hand and his eyes turned a bright green. "Spordlartsa."  In the blink of an eye, a new Sidmin stood in front of Jamie and I, he looked exactly like him.  Jamie pulled me to the side and said, "he doesn't know he's not the real Sidmin, let's keep it that way."  I nodded my head in agreement and then turned to my new brother.  "You know, you guys could at least not look like all of us are about to go into supernatural doors for the next thirty four and twenty three years." he joked.  Same humour as Sidmin, I thought.  "Elena, i thought Jordan was here, where'd he go?" asked Sidmin.  In that instance, I felt terrible.
        This Sidmin thought that Jordan was in love with him, but Jordan was in love with the real Sidmin, my real brother. "He uh, he went back to check on his pack."
        "Should I go check on him?"
        "No, no. I'm sure he's fine." I didn't want to lie to the fake Sidmin, I could already tell that would break his heart.  However, I still couldn't get over the fact that in little over a month, if I go into the lighthouse, the supernatural darkness will be gone for 34 years but then, so will I. I use to want to save the world, even if it meant I had to die basically, but something was telling me that Ashton wasn't going to let that happen. He wasn't going to even try to let me go. In the field where I died, Ashton had tried to kill Sidmin because he thought he was responsible for my death.  If I go into this lighthouse, I'm putting every human's life at risk because Ashton knows I'm doing this for the safety of them.
        I snapped out of my thoughts to see Jamie looking worried.  "Jamie what's wrong."
        "This always comes back to me. My choices. It really doesn't matter between you and Sidmin. You wouldn't have to disappear if I would just accept my mate, but I can't. I'm ugly, I'm too insecure to have a mate. I don't even love myself that much. The only thing I love is helping these people in this dimension. I don't know how to anything else." Jamie began to cry. "I have been cheated on, hurt, betrayed by my own brother. I've been rejected and forgotten by some of the people I love.  And now they all need me?  And they don't need me for "me", they need me for everyone else. They wouldn't need me if it wasn't for me going into the damn portal for 23 years."
        "So that's what energises you to leave, love and hurt." I said.
        "That's right.  And I'm afraid, that's what's going to happen to all of us." Jamie continued, "you know. Sometimes. I just feel like this is the only thing I know in my life.  Running, disappearing, leaving, saving the world. I don't know if I'm ready to be loved by someone because, I never thought it could happen. I don't even know if I could love someone."