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Secrets

Jane woke up early the next day. She wasn't feeling nauseous anymore. She felt quite different. Her body was different which was unlikely for her. "Taking magnesium before bed did make a diference! I should listen to mom more often" she mumbled to herself.

Jane used to wake up every morning with nauseous feeling and a loss of appetite. Today she was woozy and feeling a bit unsteady but could felt mighty from inside.

Taking a bath distracted her a bit. After brushing her teeth, she wore ababy blue skirt that reached to her knees, tucked the white shirt neatly under her skirt then adjusted the tie, leaving the baby blue, almond jacket unbuttoned. She slipped on her boots. She decided to let her brown hair flow on her shoulders. Jane put some milk for Tar who was enjoying his breakfast, took a toast.

With a casual stride, she headed out to get her results before going to school.

The young girl's leg betrayed her tapping lightly against the floor. When the nurse finally called her name, her heart skipped.

With shaky hands, she managed to push the door open. Doctor Smith was sitting in his usual spot. He held papers tightly in his hand.

He ushered me to sit. ''Ms. Stevens, how are you feeling today?''

He started asking questions and I knew that each question pointed to the truth that he was about to reveal.

'' I feel unsteady first thing in the morning'' a response that Jane had said more than she can even remember.

''Do you have a reduced amount of urine?'' Dr. Smith asked while scanning the pages infront of him.

"No, I usually feel a pain in my chest and a bit nauseous. That's it. Today I feel some how different, in a good way. I still feel a bit unsteady, but you told me stress do that, right?'' Jane explained nodding her head waiting for his final input.

"Ms. Smith, you are a young girl, and you are smart too. You never let anything put you down," he smiled warmly; " your blood tests show serious news about your kidney." Doctor Smith took a pause as if he was allowing me to process the information. "You have kidney failure. your kidney is not working properly,''

Jane's heart was beating so fast, she didn't want to believe.

''The results show you have been ignoring your pain. Tests should've been done sooner. Why the delay? Your mom is a friend of mine sh-"

Doctor Smith, I didn't think right. Mom was doing a big project. I kept postponing !" I buried my face in my hands.

A heavy sigh was heard. Doctor Smith was scribbling. "These medications would slow down the progression. Your kidney is not severely damaged. Don't be hard on yourself. You might not need a kidney transplant, but for now I have to see Mrs. Smith. Tell her today before I do," he warned.

She wanted to cry, she was too young to die. She didn't want to go to school anymore, but skipping school would lead her trouble. Her mother would eventually know. Let the storm of questions begin. Jane wasn't ready to tell her. It wasn't the right time. Mom was making her final touches for this huge dream project. No distractions needed.

Jane had blurry eyes. She was blowing her nose and stumbling every step of the way. She found a seat on the school's bench instead of rushing inside. She was trying to compose herself.

She wipped her teary eyes and fixed her hair. Picking up her bag from the ground, Jane walked like a wounded soldier. She went straight to science class as the bell rang.

She pushed the door open when it dawned on her. "Nice of you to join us, Ms. Smith'' Mr. Gregory sent daggers my way as I stood like a helpless deer.

''Go to your seat and next time knock on the door or else you'll be getting a detention, young lady!'' his venomous voice could be heard to Jupitor I thought.