Excerpt from a Book I will Never Write

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i just want everyone to know that i'm okay . i'm okay and i'm just taking some time off and just taking some time to breathe and that it doesn't matter whatever happens that i'm always gonna be okay . for anyone who doesn't know what's going on there's pretty much nothing going on , it's just my brain that's going on and it's driving me insane and all i wanna do is just be in my house . i'm so fucking sick . i'm so fucking sick of the world . people aren't mean to me , but i hate seeing people be mean to other people . if i could save other people , i'd rather save them than myself . but how can i save other people when i'm not even alive . i just wish this rain could stop wanting to hurt myself . i just wish that i could finally find a way to cure myself . i'm trying , i'm trying so fucking hard and it sucks because i'm trying to be a good person and that sucks because i put people in front of me , i put people before me . whether i'm here or not the sun will continue to shine , the grass will continue to grow , the birds will sing , the trees will grow and people will live and the world will continue its cycle and i will just be another person in history . no one will remember but , this is so depressing and i don't wanna. depress people . i can't sleep properly because who can sleep when your brain is constantly ticking and , i'm just .. going fucking insane . i hope whoever is reading this is having a really good day somewhat better than mine , but either way i'm gonna be okay 'cause we're all fucking fighters , you are too . please don't ever feel the way that i do , please don't ever beat yourself up , please never hate yourself . keep yourself together , keep yourself alive . do whatever the fuck you can , whatever you can to stay alive .

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