People say that I'm easily offended and that I need to be splendid. Because I'm a girl right? Because I'm so sensitive and emotional. I cry for no reason and that sometimes say what I don't mean. But I can't help it because it's all inside of me. After a few days it goes away, so in five years it doesn't disappear, right? "You are worthless" I hear as my mind gets a strong ache. I'm expected to shrug it off like it's no bug deal. 'Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me' that's what were all taught right? So I lay down because like I mentioned earlier, my head hurts. My eyes water like it does every night, but it's okay because in five years it disappears. I hear my bedroom door lock, footsteps going out the front door to who-knows-where. My eyes water more it feels like my pillow soaked the ocean. I get colder as my mind feels like a boulder.. I can't think. I can't see, it's the darkness creeping up on me in this abyss where I can't miss his words echo
LOVE.
A word that can be tossed around easily but it's very powerful, yet I don't believe any of it. Why should I? When "I hate you" has been said the same amount if times.
HATE.
A word that has a negative connotation and not usually tossed but is also very powerful. What's the difference? They're both just words. Just words that caused me to cry an ocean. Just words that causes me to meet with darkness. Just words that I dread and I can't get out. Just words in my head that inspired me to find a different route.
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