Labyrinth [BTS Fanfiction 1] (Hiatus)

Chapter 9

Damned

I was sitting in this fine dining restaurant's private room in Hong Kong. I was wearing a wine red Chanel retro big hem sweetheart halter-strap dress paired with a black velvet Jimmy Choo stilettos and a black Hermes pouch. My hair was in a vintage bombshell style while my nails and lips were painted in rich maroon.

I intentionally and specifically asked Ah Reum unnie to groom me this was today since this will be our first meeting ever since that incident a week ago.

I remembered how scared I was that night. I know Hoseok oppa has a dark side of him but I didn't know he would turn violent. No one can blame him though because all the BTS members were disappointed of Jin.

I tried hating him and blaming him but I can't because it was my own will to do stuffs with him before,. He did not forced me and I know how his career means to him so I perfectly understood as time flew by how he chose to gave me up instead.

They were on the peak of their stardom that time. I know how it means to lose your dream so I really can't blame him but it doesn't mean that I'm fine with it. It doesn't mean that I already forgive and forget everything. There's still wounds deep inside but I am here today for my son.

Of course I suffered, of course I cried for months but I learned to accept the fact that I am not someone worth giving everything up. I refuse to be the kind of girl who makes her man miserable by choosing her over his passion and dreams. That would be selfish. Besides, he doesn't even love me in the first place.

Yes, I am quite bitter inside but I don't blame him anymore because I'm truly embracing the reality that Han Sung and I was just an accidental liability to him. We are his excess baggage.

I was sipping my wine when I spotted him entering this private room. The bruise on his right cheek and the cut on the corner of his lip were still quite visible even when he was wearing make up.

There he was in his black button up tucked in his black sleek slacks. He awkwardly greeted me while I just politely smiled and bowed at him.

"I hope you don't mind that I ordered for you ahead." I broke the awkward silence between us. He can't even look me in the eye.

"It's alright." He blankly replied still avoiding my gaze. I sighed as I sipped another round of my wine.

"I know you were just forced to come here because the CEO of your company told you so." I can't hold back my tongue anymore. I'm not angry or anything at all. I just want to get things over with.

"Look, I am fine with us being strangers and all but frankly speaking I am meeting you today in hopes that you would finally acknowledge my son's existence. As much as I hate to admit it to myself and to everyone around us, I know he badly needs you." I casually spoke as if I am not affected by his presence anymore when in fact inside my heart was racing hard.

Do I still love him? As pathetic as I may sound but for now I still do. I'm still on the process of letting him go, a 5-year-long process already but at least now I can finally say that I'm making progress since I am now practically face to face with him which I can't do before.

Why am I not shaking out nervousness like before? I've mastered acting and lying too perfectly already that sometimes even I believe in my own act and lies. That's exactly why I was awarded as best actress in different award shows for two consecutive years out of my 4 years in the industry.

He was looking at me in that unreadable expression again which made my heart beats faster as if my chest would explode. I was horribly terrified of the thought that he might reject Han Sung again.