Song - Paul Weller - You Do Something to Me
I sat down staring at the floor, I could hear Lou talking on her phone quietly in the kitchen. What had I done to Liam? What had I done to myself? But it was the right thing to do, I couldn't live with guilt anymore.
Lou came back and sat down next to me, "Harry is on his way over" she stroked my hair again as she spoke, I nodded, "You have done the right thing Lily I promise" she said, why did it not feel right I felt like my heart was breaking in two.
A little while after I heard the front open and footsteps on the wooden floor, Harry's head popped round the door frame with a faint smile, I looked up and started to cry again, he came over and sat next to me and pulled me into him, "Lily I'm here" he whispered, it was then when I heard him say those words that I knew it was the right thing to do, "So why do I feel so fucking shit then?" I replied, "You were together a while it was never going to be easy, you knew that, why didn't you tell me you were going to tell him, I had no idea" Harry asked, I was lay now with my head on his chest stroking his arm, "To be honest it just all happened, I couldn't live with the guilt anymore especially after last night", "You do know it's still not going to be straightforward don't you?" Harry said, "I know, I'm going to satay here with Lou till I find a place to live" Harry sat up, "You can come and stay with me, Liam would never think anything of it" I stared at him, "What? No way I can't do that" I replied.
"Why not? Not much room here for you and no one will question you staying with me" I sat thinking about what he was saying maybe it was a good idea, "I'll think about it" I smiled and he lay back on the sofa and pulled me down onto him kissing my forehead, "You do know I'll never let you go now don't you?" Harry said quietly, "I don't ever want you to let me go" I snuggled my head into his chest, this felt so right, I'd never felt this safe with Liam ever.
I spoke to Lou about Harry's idea of me staying with him, she raised her eyebrows but she did admit no one would question it as no one had any idea about Harry & I, so a few days later I moved into Harry's till I could find a flat, I hadn't heard from Liam at all, but Harry had told me he was devastated, I saw the hurt on Harry's face when he returned home after seeing him, "He's a mess Lily, I didn't realise he would be like this, he can't find out about it would destroy him" Harry shoved his hand through his hair, I walked upto him and hugged him, his body so warm, "I know it's going to take time! Your not regretting us are you?" I asked wearily, "No, not at all, you are the best thing in my life, you know that" he hugged me tighter.
I left Harry making some phone calls and went upstairs to sort my clothes out, I decided to have a shower to relieve my fuzzy head after thinking about Liam, I put some music on and turned the shower on, Harry's house was so luxurious the shower was huge, I stepped into the shower letting then water flow over my tired body, the tears just flowed, I felt so much guilt for Liam, I hated to think of him so upset and I was too blame
Suddenly I felt 2 hands slide round my waist I turned to see Harry stood behind me, "Are you crying?" "I'm ok I was thinking about Liam" he lifted my chin upto him, "Don't torture yourself over this, it's done now" Harry replied, he turned me back round so I had my back to him and his hands were now running up down my wet body, "Tell me if you want me to stop, I understand" he said, "No don't stop" I could feel his hard body behind me, he then started to wash my hair his hands running through my hair, I thought my legs were going to give way from the feel of him, I had turned to face him now, his eyes staring into mine, he then lifted me up against the shower wall and started to kiss my neck, even though the water was hot I had goosebumps everywhere due to his lips on skin,
I closed my eyes as he shoved his cock into me, my back raised up against the wall, I opened my eyes to look at him, he was already staring at me as he shoved into me again & again, I knew I was moaning loud but for once it didn't matter as no one could hear us, I loved to watch his face as he fucked me, my hands grabbed the back of his neck as he shoved in deeper his moans now becoming louder too, I was so close to the edge now, as I reached my climax I grabbed his hair, he moaned at me grinding myself down into him, and then I watched his face contort with pleasure as he closed his eyes
We stood like this for a minute I now had my head buried in his neck, "So do you fancy a shower then" Harry laughed, as he put me back onto the shower floor my legs still felt wobbly and I steadied myself on him, "I'm glad I give you wobbly legs" Harry smiled, "I slapped him on the arm, "Watch your head on the way out won't you" I laughed, we finished showering and we then lay on the bed, I had been lay Thera bout an hour when my phone rang it was Liam, I looked at Harry "Answer it then Lil, you have to talk to him, you will see him in next few days anyway and don't forget the tour" I took a deep breath and answered.
"Liam" "Err hey Lily" the phone went silent, "Liam are you still there" I asked as I watched Harry get up of the bed and leave the bedroom, "Yes, I'm here, how are you?" "I'm ok, how are you?" I asked, "Yeah I'm good, Harry said your staying with him, that's good I'm glad you have somewhere to stay" my heart started to pound in my chest, "Yeah it's just till I can find a flat you know", I replied stuttering, "yeah yeah I know that he explained it too me" Liam replied, we both went to speak at the same time, "No you go first Lily" Liam said, "Liam I'm so sorry for the way things have turned out, it's just we have to work together and I don't want things to be weird with us" "I totally agree it won't be weird, we are friends right?" heard Liam's voice wavering, "Course we are, always" I replied my eyes now filling with tears once again, "Right then I'll let you go" Liam said, "Oh ok so I'll see you on Thursday then for the photoshoot" he just need the call I knew he was crying this is going to be so hard, harder than I ever thought
Harry came back into the room with just a towel wrapped round his waist, "You ok" he said as he sat back down on the bed, "Yeah, it just feels weird, he's saying he ok I know he's not though" "Like I've said before it will take time" I nodded at Harry.
The way Harry made me feel was like nothing I'd ever experienced before, he made me feel things I didn't feel possible at all, this is why I knew I'd made the right decision but how long would it take before things would be normal again?
