just keep swimming | l.h.

11

The weekend was over way too fast and once again I had to go tto my least favourite place in the world - school.

I didn't hate school because I was learning stuff, I actually quited liked classes sometimes and I enjoyed spending time with my friends but I hated most of the people at school for being so judgemental and stupid.

By now, I was known as the depressed girl that never got over the loss of her dad and most of the people tried to keep their distance from me and I was completely fine with that.

Though I wasn't fine with the fact that also Luke kept his distance from me on that Monday.

I tried to talk to him during lunch break but he acted really weird so I texted him to meet me after school and I was really surprised that he actually showed up.

Luke was still not himself, he was really cold and quiet during the walk to my house.

My brother and mom weren't home so Luke and I just sat down in the living room.

After I offered him a drink and brought him some coke, I couldn't stand the mood between the two of us anymore so I just straightaway asked him:"Okay Luke, you've been a prick for long enough now. How about you tell me what the fuck's wrong with you now?!"

Luke gritted his teeth, then he looked up at me angrily.

"Nothing is wrong, i'm just not having the best day."

"Luke."

"What?" Luke asked loudly and I jumped a bit in shock.

Luke suddenly looked way nicer and pulled me closer, holding me in his arms and saying:"I'm sorry" quietly.

I leaned my head against Luke's chest and said:"Luke you know that you can talk to me about everything, yea?"

I felt Luke nodding, then he said:"You mean a lot to me, you know that, right?"

I started blushing like crazy and hoped Luke wouldn't notice, then I quickly said:"I like you a lot, too"

Before an awkward silence could start, I got up to get more coke for Luke and me.

As I sat down across from Luke, he didn't stop staring at me and suddenly, he said:"Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?"

I blushed and looked down at my arms and upper thighs and said:"No, I'm not Luke."

Luke tried to make eyecontact, he grabbed my wrists, pulled me closer and gently kissed the scars on one of my wrists, then he said:"I'm not going to argue about this, you're flawless just the way you are."

I blushed even harder and cuddled up into Luke's chest quickly so he wouldn't notice. I didn't like talking about my cuts or scars and it was the worst thing if anyone touched them or tried to make self harm seem romantic because that wasn't what it was. It's an addiction and thankfully I was finally able to stop being an addict, thanks to my wonderful friends and probably most of all - Luke.

After a few moments, Luke started talking again.

"Is there anything going on between you and Ashton?" he asked and bit his lip.

I started giggeling and remembered how Larry and Jaime told me, that Luke was jealous of my older friend, but I just shrugged and said:"I like him"

Luke looked kind of sad rightaway, so I quickly pinched his cheek and said:"Not even nearly as much as I like you though, don't worry"

For the first time of that day I was finally able to see Luke smile at me genuinely.

***

On the next day at school, I noticed Luke, Calum and Michael sticking around together all day and they kind of left me pout so I spent some time with some of my girl friends.