just keep swimming | l.h.

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I obviously couldn't avoid Luke at school the next day even though I wanted to, so i tried to act as normal around him as possible, but he noticed that there was something wrong with me immediately.

Luke asked me to talk after school, so I took him home with me.

I was lucky because neither my mum nor my brother were home.

"What's wrong, Bella?"

I sighed. I didn't know where to start. I thought about it for a few seconds, then I said:"First of all you've been acting weird after our date, then you don't come to school for two days and then I meet your ex, who tells me that you're doing drugs and that the guy who's been with you on tuesday actually sells drugs."

Luke clenched his jaw and angrily said:"First of all, I was sick, Bella, believe it or not but my head was killing me and I was having a terrible cold...and what was that girls name?"

I rolled my eyes. "Kylie"

"Ugh" Luke said "she's not my ex. I mean we had that thing a few months back but we've never been dating."

I gritted my teeth, I didn't want to start an arguement about his ex girlfriends or whatever they were so I just kept quiet and Luke continued:"The thing about the drugs is only half true aswell. I used to do them but i've stopped a while ago because I stopped hanging with Lewis and his clique. Lewis wanted to sell me stuff on Tuesday, that's why I didn't want you and Mike to come in. I didn't buy anything though. I haven't told you before because I thought it didn't matter...and because I didn't want you to think that bad about me."

I sighed:"It wouldn't have made me think bad about you, everybody has their flaws."

"I messed up, I know. I'm sorry, I mean it." Luke looked at me sadly, biting down on his lip ring.

"Just tell me about stuff like this from now on."

"I promise to do." Luke said and extended his pinkie. I linked my pinkie with his and smiled.

"Come here you idiot" I finally said, pulling Luke closer and kissing him softly.

"I missed this" Luke said and sighed and I agreed quietly.

Later that day, we went over to Luke's because they boys wanted to record a new cover, the first one including Ashton, who was probably being picked up by Michael as Luke and I took the subway.

The boys decided to cover "Teenage Dirtbag" by Wheatus and they obviously did a great job.

I wasn't the only one who thought that they were great musicians, their youtube channel almost had 30k subscribers already which was really crazy.

After the song was recorded, the boys actually tried to work on some original songs they were writing.

One of them was called "Gotta get out" and Calum actually wrote it a while back. The boys wanted to record that one as their first song and I was already beyond excited how it would sound.

Soon, the boys left, but Luke didn't want me to leave so I stayed and we watched a movie and ate ice cream until my mum picked me up.

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The next few weeks went by very quickly, the boys gained more subscribers on YouTube and were even recognized on the streets sometimes, which was quite creepy to me, and their first own song "Gotta get out" sounded absolutely beautiful and a lot of people liked it.

Meanwhile I was really happy because we finally had a break from school, so I could spend a lot of time with Luke and the best thing was that his parents actually went to visit Luke's grandparents who lived further away and Luke managed to be able to stay at home.

Luke and the boys had a band practice so I sat in Luke's garden and listened to them while lying there with my eyes closed.

I wasn't very good at just relaxing without falling asleep, so I was awoken by Luke, who opened the door to the garden later.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were sleeping" Luke said, looking at me like a lost puppy.

"It's alright" I said, standing up and stretching my body.

Luke and I went inside and up to Luke's room, where we lied down on his bed. Luke was on his phone all the time which started to bother me, so I climbed ontop of him, took his phone and layed it down onto the nightstand.

"Eyyy" Luke protested, but then he pulled me closer and smiled at me.

Lukes perfect blue eyes locked with mine and he stared into my eyes for a while until he began kissing me slowly and passionately.

He soon deepened the kiss and let his tongue slip into my mouth, as I put my hands around his neck, trying to pull him as close to me as possible.

Luke's hand suddenly went under my shirt and he tried to raise it up, but I had to stop kissing him to be able to pull of my shirt.

Normally, we didn't undress each other during make out sessions, but it just happened and soon both off us were just wearing underwear.

Luke quickly turned us around so he was hovering over me, then he started kissing me again, but now rougher than he usually did.

I started messing with Luke's hair as he tried to bring his body even closer to mine. Luke's hand found it's way to my upper thigh, from where on he slowly let his hand slip under the side of my underpants.

Suddenly I remembered the stuff Kylie told me a few weeks before and her words didn't leave my mind.

"He can be cute at first but he's going to leave you after he slept with you."

I reached down and linked my fingers with Luke's so that he couldn't go any further and Luke stopped kissing my neck.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

I didn't want to start crying but I felt tears coming, so I quickly tried to choke them back and said:"Do you remember that I talked to this Kylie girl?"

Luke nodded and looked at me concerned.

"Well, she also told me that you just use girls to sleep with them and then you leave them."

Luke looked at me shocked, then both of us sat up and he said:"Okay babe, listen. I used to sleep with a lot of different girls, not because I had feelings for any of them but because I wanted to feel something. Alcohol, Drugs and hooking up seemed like the only way to feel anything at all. I've been doing that for about a year, but after I've got to know you I stopped, because you made me feel alive and happy with just knowing that you were there for me. Remeber when we had that beach date? I really wanted to go further with you back then but I stopped myself because i felt like it would have been to early and I was afraid that I'd mess up everything afterwards. I would never ever use you, Bella. You're the first girl I genuinely love."

I started tearing up a bit more, I could tell that Luke wasn't lying and even if he used to be an asshole in the past, the present was everything that counted in that moment.

I leaned in and Luke kissed me for a few seconds until he pulled away and said:"I'm not good at confessing my feelings"

"Neither am I" I said and chuckled while leaning my forehead against his.

Luke pulled back his head and lifted mine up, so that we were looking each other in the eyes.

"I love you"

There it was, the first time Luke Hemmings said those three words to me and by the way he looked at me I knew that he meant it, he wasn't a boy to just go around and tell people that he loved them without genuinely meaning it.

I smiled and said:"And I love you, Luke"

Luke grinned and leaned in to kiss me once more.

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A/N: Sooo, yay i guess this was kinda cute maybe? ;) Aaaand some drama got cleared up....to make space for new drama muhahaha, Stay tuned! :)

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