a heart's end

Thirty Six

Christmas Day

Anaelle

    "Merry Christmas, Pumpkin!" Kalena jumped on my bed and startled me awake. Abbaline and Geraldine were up getting ready, they gave me a warm smile when my eyes opened. Abbaline cut her hair, I noticed. No longer was it long and blonde, but cut up to her shoulders and tousled. It looked good but I didn't feel like telling her.

    I bought them all Christmas presents, and not because Monty told me to. Because I truly wanted to. They have always accepted me with an open heart, so to reward them I bought them each Louis Vuitton heels. I even wrapped them myself and placed them right there under our little Christmas tree we put up last night on Christmas Eve. I never knew people had real traditions like watching Christmas movies and baking cookies. Kalena said she's done this every year since she could walk. I looked at our tree once more and noticed that the presents doubled, and a slight pang of hope rushed through me at the thought that maybe they bought me something too.

    "Why are you all getting ready? What's the plan for today?" I asked as I put my hair in a bun. The thing that annoyed me most, however, is they they are always doing something. They always have somewhere to go, something to do. I wanted to tell them to just chill.

    "Well, me and the girls were going to watch a Christmas parade down by Central Park. We wanted to get breakfast first and wanted you to join."

    There was something I had to do first.

    "Let me catch up to you at the parade, I'm not really hungry for breakfast. Thanks anyway." They shrugged and finished getting ready.  I laid back in the bed and checked my phone. So far this year has flown by, and the thought of it already being December 25th surprised me.

    "Hey I think there's a party going on later at a couple of the boys dorms. We were all planning on going if you wanted to join us then?" Abbaline chirped and I fake smiled. Always something to do.

    "We'll see."

    As soon as they left I got up and brushed my teeth. I carefully picked out my outfit, keeping a sharp mind about how bitterly cold it was outside. I opted for some jeans, a long sweater, and a vest. A beanie went over my ears and I brushed my hair. With Monty's gift in my pocket, I set out for his dorm.

He will absolutely love his gift, I know it. It's the perfect kind of sentimental gift for him.

I don't have to worry about Donte the next couple weeks because he's in Maine with his Mother for Christmas and New Years. I believe he will be back on the fifth, which coincidentally is Monty's cast party since his opening night is the 5th as well. I don't know how that's going to turn out. Donte's mom is not doing well at all. I think at one point Donte said he saw her cough up blood. He's going through a tough time. I should be there supporting him.

But I love Monty. I love him more than the stars and the moon and the earth. I wake up everyday craving him. If anything ever happened to him I don't know how I'd go on. I hoped he felt the same about me. Because whenever I lose Donte, Monty will see a side of myself that the gates of hell can't confide. It would be for the best, because after the pain of losing Donte I will fully be able to love Montgomery. Forever.

The elevator seemed like it took forever to get to Monty's floor. There weren't many people here at the dorms, since everybody was at home visiting their families. Monty didn't want to go home for Christmas because he didn't want me to be lonely on Christmas Day. I insisted he went, telling him that Christmas was literally just another day for me. He insisted that he is with his family because he is with me. God, I love him.