my heart...

Pretty Girl

My words hide behind my lips
My fists behind my pockets
My tears behind my pride

Just because I don't say what's on my mind
Or substitute those words for happy ones
Doesn't mean there's nothing wrong
And does not mean I'm just a doll
For you to speak for

Just because I don't take action
Or raise my fists
Doesn't mean I'm not a ball of emotions
Ready to explode
And does not mean you can push me around

Just because I don't let rain fall whenever
Or call out for your help
Doesn't mean I'm okay
And does not mean I trust you
With my wellbeing

Yes
I am lost
Yes
I've been injured
Yes
I am mad
No
You've never been there for me
No
It's not easy
And no
I'm not okay

Your not allowed to say sorry
Not allowed to come and hug me
If you really want to help me
Then leave me and let me be me
You've done enough anyhow
You can go and live your life now
I've had to go this far alone
Its time for me to find a home
F u
F him
F her
F them
I only have me
And that's how it'll always be

I'm an extra with no instructions
A gps with no directions
A body without a heart
A dog without her bark

I'm a puppet to you all
I'm just a broken doll
And if you think that you can fix me
The why did you call me fall?

This pretty girl wants a life
And is only there for bringing up the vibe
But what happens when she's not pretty anymore
And no ones there for sure

I have me
That's something only I can see
Because at the end of the day
Who hurts the most for the things I don't say?

She will raise her voice
Make some noise
Take some action
And take a vacation

She will cry her rivers
And make sure her massage delivers
Because she want to live a happy life
No one can stop her from the strife

I WILL SCREAM AND YOU WILL LISTEN
I AM ME AND NO ONE WILL CHANGE IT

I'm not a fool so don't make assumptions
I may fall
I may break
But I come up with these instructions

I am me
And that's pretty too :p

SO F**K U