For you

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Warm tears stream down my face
And I notice my body's gone cold

I keep everything locked away for you
I hid in my closet for you
I put on a mask for you
I stay perfect for you

But I realize that I'm truly alone
Forced to face the world by myself
I'm falling into the endless abyss
With nobody to watch me fall
And nobody to try and catch me

I may look like I'm throwing a pity party
But I'm just facing reality
The reality that I only have myself to hold
That even I doubt myself

Nothing comes easy
I have to work for everything I have
Everything hurts me
But I have to hid the fact that I'm hurting

The fact is that the more I share, the more I hurt
The more I smile in the light, the more I cry in the dark
The more I care, the more I hid
And he more I alone I feel, the more insane I go inside

I think about starting over
Cutting my hair
Going somewhere far away
Wearing a different name
Changing and looking forward

But I know I have you
I love you and
I still look forward
The only thing is
I'm going mad

The only place I have
Is in my head
And even then

...I don't have a home

Umm hi- Autumn

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