Warm tears stream down my face
And I notice my body's gone coldI keep everything locked away for you
I hid in my closet for you
I put on a mask for you
I stay perfect for youBut I realize that I'm truly alone
Forced to face the world by myself
I'm falling into the endless abyss
With nobody to watch me fall
And nobody to try and catch meI may look like I'm throwing a pity party
But I'm just facing reality
The reality that I only have myself to hold
That even I doubt myselfNothing comes easy
I have to work for everything I have
Everything hurts me
But I have to hid the fact that I'm hurtingThe fact is that the more I share, the more I hurt
The more I smile in the light, the more I cry in the dark
The more I care, the more I hid
And he more I alone I feel, the more insane I go insideI think about starting over
Cutting my hair
Going somewhere far away
Wearing a different name
Changing and looking forwardBut I know I have you
I love you and
I still look forward
The only thing is
I'm going madThe only place I have
Is in my head
And even then...I don't have a home
Umm hi- Autumn

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my heart...
PoetryDo you like anyone? Are you like me? Am I alone? Or do I just have my own sea to swim in...? *btw these are all original by me. So no using my work please (unless I give you permission).