I'm so tired of this
Of writing poems when I'm sad and pissed
Of hoping that one day someone I will notice this
I just wanna scream and cry to the sky
But I can't if I wanna break through
If I wanna grow my wings and fly
Some days just hurt
Some days I get why I close myself off
To the ones that think their words don't hurt
Some days I'm just tired
Sick of these shitty moments
Hoping that the next ones will change
Where do I go?
Who do I talk to?
What do I do?
When all I can really do is speak up or sit still?
There are no visible doors or windows for me to exit through
Trust is out of the question
Feeling makes me feel like shit
So what do I do?
I've tried speaking up
It hurt ten fold
I've tried leaving
I had nowhere to go
I've tried trusting
That didn't work out
Sometimes I feel like I've been backed up against a corner and no one knows their doing it to me
So when I tell them to back off
I hurt them
When I let myself take it
I hurt myself
When I try to find exit
I hurt everyone
I hurt
And writing poems
Hoping someone will understand the words I write
The feelings I convey
Has just forced me to "put a pin on my feelings"
For the sake of everyone
I say "I love you"
But I'm not doing my best for you
And if I can't even do that
Then maybe I haven't tried everything
I say "I love you"
And I do
So I'll keep trying
We'll find a way
Just trust me
Trust me
I love you
Thank you for being tired of this
It means you haven't stopped
It means "those moment" are possible
Thanks friend
YOU ARE READING
my heart...
PuisiDo you like anyone? Are you like me? Am I alone? Or do I just have my own sea to swim in...? *btw these are all original by me. So no using my work please (unless I give you permission).
