Blessings to Never Let You Go (Book 2 of the Mercy Forever Series)

Chapter 17 - The Wedding (Part 4)

Selena’s POV

Everything up to this point isn’t worth it except the twins. I just don’t have it in me to marry Nick anymore because of what happened between us and me and Kevin. I just don’t want the same thing to happen to Danielle. I can’t hurt her like that the same way I’ve done to Olivia.

I’m still just standing near the window, contemplating on how I could quickly leave and take the little ones back with me to LA.

Soon I hear a knock on my door, and the only voice that brings me any peace.

“Selena, hey sweetie, how are you feeling?” My mom asks me.

How am I going to look her in the eyes and tell her that I don’t want to marry the father of my children? I just can’t keep hiding behind all of this. “Mom, I can’t do this. I can’t marry Nick anymore,” I tell her with such disappointment in my own voice.

I still have my back turned, but I know that she is upset and is likely going to scream at me for making this decision too quickly.

Mandy, angrily, says, “Selena, what are you talking about? Look at what we have done for you. How can you say that you don’t want to marry Nick anymore? What happened now?"

The way she has to say it isn’t going to make this any better because I’m starting to think that falling for Nick a third time was a mistake. I just can’t hide this anymore. I turn around and face her, “Mom, I’m sorry, but I just can’t marry him anymore. I don’t love him anymore.”

I can just see that my mom was livid by my decision to leave Nick so suddenly. I know what I’m doing and I just want to protect my heart. She didn’t want me to take Nick back in the first place and now she believes that I’m making a big mistake leaving him behind.

Before I could speak again, she opened her mouth, “Well, at this point, it doesn’t matter whether you love him or not, you are not leaving until you finish what you started. You are going to marry Nick if you like it or not! I’ve put so much energy trying to support you through all of this and you decide drop out at the last minute? Forget it, Selena. You are going to walk down that aisle and marry him.”

I couldn’t believe her. She’s forcing me to marry Nick now that I have no desire to go along with it.

After ranting to me, she leaves the room, making stay until I walk down the aisle to marry the man that I have fallen out of love with. I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ve truly lost all love for Nick because I just can’t bare another second close to destroying their lives. I don’t want to be a homewrecker and drama for the Jonas family.

I don’t want another repeat like what happened between me and Justin.

Walking over to the large vanity and sitting down on the chair, thinking, how can I live with myself now because I don’t want to commit to an entire lifetime with Nick? I’ve dreamed about this for so long and having a family with two beautiful children. But with my ex-boyfriend who tried to rape me? I’m done with Nick and I have been since we broke up.

Oh God, I don’t even know where my kids are. I just hope Priscilla has them.

Mandy’s POV

I cannot believe Selena right now.

Of all decisions she has ever made, I will not let this happen while I do nothing. She is not walking out on this wedding. I don’t know what’s wrong with her this time, but she just can’t walk out on Nick right now. They have too much to deal with and those young children need both of them to survive. I have no other choice but to let Nick know about this.