London - van mccann

30.

- a week later.

I went to Matty's apartment yesterday after a few days to myself, but of course I couldn't stay away.
He looked dead, his face was looking pale, his lips all dry turning to purple and bags under his eyes.
I opened the door and saw him laying in bed
I smiled weakly closing the door "hey" I whispered walking towards him "good morning, love" he said looking at me
"You look gorgeous" he said knitting his eyebrows together looking at me up and down
My heart started beating faster "thank you" I whispered sitting down next to me
George told me he had to see a doctor today to check up on him.
"Where's George?" I asked "showering" he said finishing his fag
I looked at him "I look like a fucking zombie, fuckin' hell" he said brushing a hand through his hair "I'd still fuck you.." I whispered
"What's holding ya' back then?" He said looking at me with a smirk
"Good morning" George said with a small smile looking at me "good morning George" I said smiling "we're going in 10 minutes, you'll be ready then?" He asked grabbing a bottle of water Matty nodded
He looked at me putting a finger under my chin  making me look at him, he leaned in and kissed my lips before getting out of bed
I smiled and brushed a hand through my hair
He rubbed his eyes with his hands and walked into his bedroom
"I've been wondering this for weeks now, why is his bed in the living room era?" I asked with a chuckle "no one knows" George chuckled
I stepped out of his bed and walked into the living room lighting a fag
"I'm nervous" I said looking at George
"Cause of what the doctor is gonna sa-"
I cut him off by nodding "me too" he whispered
5 minutes later we stepped into Matty's car.
George was driving, me and Matty sat in the back.
I looked at him running a hand through his hair, he looked at me and mouthed "I love you"
I smiled and nodded "I love you too" I whispered he kissed my cheek and look in front of him.
He was everything to me, everything.
He kept staring at me while i looked out of the window "how long it it driving?" I asked George looking at him "5 minutes" he said i nodded
Matty intertwined his hand with mine
I looked at him, he leaned in and kissed my lips
I deepened the kiss.

After a few minutes we arrived at the doctors
We got out of his car and walked towards the building.
Matty's hand and mine were intertwined the whole time.
We waited in the waiting room until his name was called.
Matty walked into the room with the doctor leaving me and George alone.
We waited like 15 minutes until he got out of the room.
He looked at me, he looked at me with those sad eyes.
I know this wasn't good.
He shook his hand with the doctor and walked back to us.
Matty was silence, we walked towards his at hand in hand.
"Matty?" I whispered as we got in
He didn't look at me "I'm leaving tomorrow" he said George turned around to look at him
"Leaving?" He asked confused
"I have to go to rehab." He said
I looked at him, then at George
"What?" I said George turned around and started the car, i looked at Matthew
"Look at me" I whispered cupping his cheeks with my hands, he looked at me
"We'll get you through this yeah?" I whispered kissing his lips he looked sad at me
I got my hands of his cheeks and held his hand in mine.
"I love you" I whispered
After a few minutes we arrived back at Matty's apartment.
We sat down on the couch.
George stayed the whole day just to make sure everything went well.
Ones George left, to let me spend some time alone with Matty.
He looked at me, "I'm so sorry" I whispered looking at him "Matty-" I started
"You tried your best-"
"I was going to help you, i tried everything i could but- I'm so sorry" I whispered looking at him "listen to me, I don't want you to feel bad, ever, cause it's everything but your fault" he said looking at me "I'm going to rehab okay? That's just what I'm gonna do and we'll figure everything out yeah? I'll come back..all better" he started and looked at me "all happy" he said faking a smile making me smile "we'll be happy again, I'll make you happy and everything will be better." He said, I knew he was hoping that would happen, he wasn't sure about that i could tell.