London - van mccann

32.

- 5 days later
- Bella's pov

I looked at the tv
Tom was already sleeping, I suppose.
I looked at my phone, 3am.
It was really hard sleeping alone for the few days, I constantly thought of matty.
I called him 4 nights ago when i was absolutely drunk, but since then we haven't had contact.
I told him i missed him and that i hoped he was doing okay.
I deleted his number though, so that i wouldn't be able to call him up on days like that.
I cried a few times this week about him as well, I was so scared thinking about what if he was the only one who loved me the way i wanted to be loved.
Leaving him was really the hardest things i ever did.
But I had to realize that, it wouldn't work out, not anymore and that his gone, i really had to realize that.
I heard a knock on my door, I turned the tv off and unlocked the door.
I opened the door and looked at who it was.
I smiled at him, he smiled back at me
He was carrying a bag he used for tour.
I stepped closer to him and wrapped my arms around his neck "missed you already" I whispered looking at him "me too" he said kissing my cheek softly
He looked at me tiredly playing my messy ponytail I smiled before unwrapping my arms taking a step back "you look gorgeous" he said closing the door
I giggled shaking my head grabbing his bag putting it on my couch, he sat down next to the window opening it lighting a fag "how was it?" I asked walking into the kitchen "tour?" He asked "hmm" I said "it was amazing" he said looking outside with a smile taking a drag of his fag "I honestly wished you were there" he said i walked towards him with one cold beer in my right hand and a class of water in the other
"You getting heathy?" He joked looking at me
I sat down on the windowsill where he was sitting and looked at him handing him the beer i got from the fridge "oh you know I'm not" I chucked looking at him i stood up grabbing my pack of fags that were laying on the table
I could feel van's eyes burn in my back
I grabbed the pack and walked back, but he was looking at me all too innocently "what?" I asked with a chuckle "you're wearing nice a nice ring G-string" he said looking at me
I rolled my eyes playfully before sitting down again lighting a ciggy
He took a sip of his beer and looked at me
He light another fag "I'm so tired" I whispered
"You wanna go to bed?" He asked i shook my head standing up finishing drinking my water
I sat closer to him and kissed his lips
"In a bit" I whispered he nodded

I woke up the next morning and opened my eyes seeing that van was dressing himself
"Good morning love" he said looking at me
I rubbed my eyes and smiled at him
"Good morning" I whispered looking at him before brushing a hand through my messy hair
"I made some tea, well your brother was in the kitchen and asked me if i wanted some tea and i said i would make it but uh- it's in the kitchen" he said i looked at him with a grin before shaking my head with a smile on my face "thank you" I said standing up
I looked at him standing in front of him
I kissed him for a second before walking towards where his tour bag was laying
"You wore all of these clothes that's in that bag?" I asked he nodded sitting down on my bed "okay, I'm gonna wash that after i had my tea" I said before opening the windows of my room, he chuckled as i walked back to him
"What?" I asked "you really don't have to do that love" he chuckled looking at me standing up "I'm gonna do it anyway" I said before walking out of my bedroom to get some tea
I sat down in the kitchen "where's Tom?" I asked van "he went out, to visit his girlfriend" he said walking outside onto the balcony to smoke a cig.
I grabbed a cup and put it down on the counter pouring some tea into the cup.
I sat down in the kitchen lighting a fag and looked at my nails, i needed to get them done again, I was a bit of a mess.

I looked at van while we walked down the street "I missed being here, honestly" he said intertwining his fingers with mine "
I smiled "yeah?" I whispered he nodded
"But I couldn't live here though, here in London..it's too quick for me" he said brushing a hand through his hair "really?" I asked he nodded as we crossed the street
It was still pretty early for me, 11am.
But we went for a coffee and a muffin and walk around the city for a bit.
"So the place you live now?" I started "hmm" he said "Chester right?" I asked he nodded "I never been there..is it nice?" I asked he looked at me "you never been there?" He asked i nodded "it's nice though, you should visit" he said looked at me for a second with a smile
"I definitely will." I smiled
"Good" he said turning his head
"So ya' mam and dad live in Llandudno" I said he nodded "yeah I still got a room over there" he chucked I smiled "how long haven't you seen them?" I asked "for like..8 months i think"  he said
After a few minutes we walked inside of a coffee shop and sat down.
"It's looks nice this" he said as he sat down
"Yeah it does, I never really been here" I said looking around
We ordered a cup of coffee and a muffin and had a conversation about fake nails, i explained to him as much as i could.
"I don't understand it though" he said looking at me "it's just, I don't know i feel more feminine with em you know?" I said he nodded "kind of" he chucked "but they look good on you though" he whispered finishing his second cup of coffee, we stood up seconds after and left, the small coffee shop.
"Where are we going now then?" He asked
"Uhh well, what'd you like to do?" I asked looking at him "we could go to Hyde park, you never been there have you?" I asked he shook his head lighting a ciggy, "but it's like 30 minutes walking, so that's like-" I started but saw van's face and immediately I started laughing "we could go to Trafalgar Square" I said looking at him "that isn't like 30 minutes-" he started but i cut him off "no it's not" I chuckled "it's like a one minute walk" I said he looked at me with smile "good, good" he said smiling taking a drag of his ciggy