- Bella's pov
I sighed looking at Matty "we can't keep-" i started but he cut my off ones again "I know what you are gonna say but- i think it's because of this stressful situation you know?" He said
I nodded it's been weeks since Tom moved in with me.
He's not doing a lot better but he is getting there, but it has gotten worse between me and Matty, I wasn't giving him much attention and he always needed it, we kept arguing.
Even over stupid little things.
I was thinking about van more and more.
It's mainly cause i dreamed of him a couple nights ago.
I needed to talk to him but since he had a different company every night, and no time to think about it, i knew it didn't bother him.
"I'm going out tonight." Tom said walking into the living room "oh?" I said clearing my thought "yeah, just with a couple mates no biggy" he said sitting down i nodded "just call me if something's wrong yeah?" I asked
He smiled "I think i can handle it." He whispered "I know-"
"Thank you." He said smiling "for everything that you've done the past couple of weeks." He said nodding i sighed with a smile "it's no problem honestly" I said
- 12am
I looked at Matty who was looking at me
"What are we gonna do?" I asked
He held his shoulders up "I honestly don't know, I really don't" he whispered
My eyes started to get watery "I love you, Matty." I whispered he shook his head and stood up "don't say that, please." He whispered
"Matty-"
"Fuck sake, Bella!" He yelled
I looked at him confused and shocked by his sudden outburst.
He shook his head "I need you to do something for me yeah?" He asked
"You need to stop loving me"
I shook my head looking at him confused
"What-"
"I keep hurting you, i don't deserve you"
"Matty come on listen-"
"I slept with someone." He whispered
My eyes grew wide, tears fell out of my eyes
"Y-you what? Matty how could-"
"I'm so sorry Bella" he whispered with tears in his eyes "leave." I whispered "Bella-"
"You are fucking right i need to stop loving you so leave my apartment, now." I said
He shook his head "you're tipsy and high on weed, i am too but tomorrow you'll be calling me again-" he started but i chuckled and slapped his cheek after "I don't want to see you ever again." I whispered through the tears.
Minutes later i stepped into a taxi
- van's pov
I heard a knock on the door
I got up and unlocked the door and opened it
"Bella?" I asked she was in tears, make up was running down her cheeks.
"Love come in." I whispered
She walked in and sat down on a chair in the hotel room i was staying in
"I'm sorry" she whispered i knitted my eyebrows together and bent down in front of her "what-" I started but she cut me off
"I was an idiot going back to him, i mean everyone told me i shouldn't but i did, we slept i didn't even talked to you after that, I can't believe myself." She sighed closing her eyes
"Hey, hey love" I said looking at her she swallowed "it's okay yeah? Those things happened I'm not mad anymore alright? I haven't never really mad-" I started but she cut me off "what were you then?" She whispered
I sighed "upset." I whispered "I'm sorry."
I nodded "I just need some- just distraction." She whispered looking at me "distraction?" I asked she nodded coming closer
Van don't do this, this is wrong.
"What kind of distraction do you need?" I asked and before i knew it my lips were on her lips
- Bella's pov
I lay there underneath the white sheets with him
"You know?" He said brushing his fingers softly through some of my hair "it's a sin that you don't know how beautiful you are" He whispered looking into my eyes i smiled rolling my eyes "cheesy you are eh? Who would expected that?" I asked smiling "I did." He smiled i rolled over to my phone to check the time "fuck, it's already 4 in the morning?" I asked he nodded "I have to work in a couple hours" i said shaking my head "why don't you just take a day off?" He asked "I haven't been to work since a long time i really need to go today" I whispered he nodded lighting a fag
"You fancy going out for breakfast before you go to work?" He said with a smile
"I would love to" i whispered smiling
We sat down in a small restaurant/cafe kinda thing nearby when my phone went off
- matty
Love, where are you?
I sighed shaking my head "what's wrong?" Van asked i looked at him "uh- nothing" i whispered he nodded "I really enjoyed last night" he said with a tired smile as i brushed a hand through my hair "good, cause i did too" i said he nodded "I have a question" I said he nodded "how's the band doing?" I asked "class, we are busy at the moment actually, maybe we have a chance to break through" he joked smiling i shook my head chuckling
"But how class would that be? We always dreamed of that, imagine going to America or Europe because of your music? Or playing stadiums, that's the goal, to inspire as many people as we can." He said smiling
"Would you still hang with me if you-"
"Don't even question that." He whispered smiling "good." I said
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I'm really sorry guys for the short chapter but i had a really busy week so i just ended the chapter here.
Thank you for reading! X
