Marry Me (Camren)

SEVENTEEN

After a whole day's toss, Lauren who rarely did sports only eat a bit during dinner. She nearly fell asleep in the bathtub when she was bathing. At last she dried her hair under Camila's help then fell asleep once she touched the bed. Camila helped her to cover herself with blanket, turned off the light and left the room.

Camila took out everything they bought today. She took all the clothes to the laundry and to the closet, and put all the daily products to the shelves. When she finished it was already an hour and half later. Camila quietly opened the bedroom door and kneeled in front of Lauren.

Camila observed for a while, making sure Lauren was sleeping heavily. She brought her hand to her cheek. The sight she looked at Lauren was like today during sunset, so sentimental and full of love.

"Lauren..." Camila said softly, the name she called was full of complicated feelings. "Lauren, you are asleep, right?"

She only got steadily breath in respond. Camila was assured and she continued. "You must be really tired today. You should take a look at your sleepy face. If I didn't knock the door when you were bathing, are you gonna sleep in the bathtub?" Camila sat on the ground, resting her chin on the edge of the bed. She was only a few centimetres away from Lauren's face. She slightly pinched Lauren's cheek with the hand on her face. Looking at Lauren's beautiful face turning to strange faces she made, a smile creeped on her face.

"Did you notice my differences today? You did right? We've never hung out like a real couple before. Our holding hands were always loosened after crossing the road or just lasted a few minutes. This is the first time, our hands were intertwined from the beginning till the end. What do you think? It feels good right?" Saying, Camila slid her hand to Lauren's hand exposing from the blanket and intertwined. Under the dim light the hands were unidentifiable. Camila looked at the intertwined hands for long. She like the intimate.

"Will you feel weird if I say these cheesy things? If I say, yeah, I'm in love with you..." Camila looked back at Lauren's face. She hope Lauren was now listening to her taking the courage to say these with her eyes open. But she was on the other hand lucky that Lauren was asleep so she could speak her heart out. "But I'm not dare to tell you. I'm afraid if I tell you, we will not be getting along as easy as before. And... you're still in love with Brad right? I've heard it clear enough last time. Your love and your heartbreak. Also, aren't you a person who always forgive? Just like last time I uncarefully dyed your blouses. You were not angry at all. You only cared if I got frostbite or not..."

Camila blinked her eyes, realising she was crying. "You shouldn't be that tender to me, Lauren. Maybe I was in love with you since that time. But you already have your Brad..." Lauren was the first one who gave her the feeling of home. She was the first one who was willing to share the same shelter with her. She was also the first person she fell in love with... but she didn't belong with her.

"Lauren, forgive me. Today, I was being selfish. I want us to date like a real couple. You won't blame me right?" Watching a movie cuddling like a couple, holding hands hanging around like a couple, feeding each other with food like a couple, sharing the same drink, spoiling each other, holding hands watching the sunset......

There was a say, if two people watched the sunset together, they could grow old together...

Camila silently looked at Lauren's serene sleeping face, like she wanted to imprint her face in her mind. Eventually, she slowly let go Lauren's hand intertwining hers. Lauren's hand fell on the bed without any supporting strength. She pressed her cold lips on Lauren's. "I didn't regret." Didn't regret meeting you. Didn't regret marrying you. Didn't regret falling in love with you.

Camila stood up, forcing herself to leave the room without looking back.

-But Laur, if one day, you decided to go back to him, please tell me directly and immediately. Please don't make me the last one to know.-