I love you more. *A Zalfie Fanfic*

Deep Conversations

I sat down in the passenger seat and waited for Alfie to get into the car. I was nervous. Me and Alfie have never had deep conversations, and being together in a car for 3 hours would bring something up.

Alfie got in and started the car.

"Ready?"

"Yep!"

Alfie backed out of the drive way. And I set the GPS to Lou's address. Once we were off the town streets and on the motorway Alfie and I started talking.

"Zoe can I ask you a question?"

"Sure Alf."

"Why did you stay with him?"

"What do you mean?" I knew what Alfie meant I was just scared to talk about him. He mad me nervous and scared and I didn't know why.

"Zoe he was mean and abusive. You were with him for what, 4, 5 months. Don't tell me he just started acting like this."

"He wasn't always like that."

"When did he change?"

Nick was complex great on the outside, monster on the inside. Mean and sadistic.

"When we first got together he was really sweet. Opened doors for me called me cute pet names and so on. But as we got more serious Nick got more abusive. I don't really know how to explain it. At first he was just rude, calling me names, ordering me around things like that. And then it was grabbing and yelling. I was constantly bruised and I had and still do have terrible self-esteem thanks to Nick." I could see Alfie's jaw clench and his hands gripped the wheel tight making every muscle in his arm tense. "I don't think we should talk about it Alf, it makes you upset."

"No Zoe please I need to know."

"Are you sure you'll be okay."

"Yes."

I hesitantly started talking again.

"Then he started hitting and calling me not so cute pet names. The first time Nick ever smacked me we were in his flat and we had ordered a pizza. When the pizza boy was at the door he was flirting with me. As most pizza boys do. I paid him and walked back in and as soon as I set the box down on the table Nikolai backhanded me hard across my face. Calling me a whore and a slut. He then grabbed my wrist and shoved me in the closet and told me to stay there if I valued my life."

Alfie was just looking ahead his face was a dark shade of red from the anger coursing through his veins.

"How long had you been in the relationship when he started doing this?" Alfie asked.

"About 3 weeks."

"AND YOU STAYED?!"

"WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO ALFIE!?" Tears started trickling out of my eyes. Steady streams running down my cheeks. I sat there and pulled my knees to my chest and started to sob.

Alfie pulled over into a car park and got out of the car. He walked over to my side and opened the door. He held put a hand and I just sat there. Crying.

"C'mon Zo." he said.

I grabbed Alfie's hand and he pulled me out of the car and into a hug.

"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have raised my voice. Just thinking about him and what he did you makes me out raged. I don't understand how anyone could treat you like that."

I was still crying. My tears staining Alfie's heather grey t-shirt. I was breathing heavily and my face was hot from all the crying. Alfie grabbed both sides of my face and made me look at him. Bending down so we were level at the eyes he began to speak.

"I will NEVER treat you like that. Because I love you with all my heart. I know this has happened fast and I know we've rushed things. But just know that I'm here for you and I will always be here. And I will do anything for you. Because I love you Zo."

I looked at him my cheeks still damp beneath his palms and tears still in my eyes. And I realized that I was totally in love with this man and the way he treated me and cared for me. I was in love with his gentle touches and feather like kisses. I was in love with his smile and his laugh and his everything.

"I love you more Alfie."

Our lips crashed into each others and my hands grabbed his face pulling him to me. He grabbed my hips and picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and kissed him. Hungrily. His hands moved under my shirt grazing over my back. Our tongues intertwined. My fingers tangled in his hair. Alfie grabbed the bottom of my thighs and his mouth moved down to my jawline I threw my head back and Alfie nipped at my neck. His hands left my hips and moved to my face grabbing it and making me look at him he whispered "Can we wait?"

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THERE WILL BE MORE TONIGHT I PROMISE.

I would make this long I just wanted to get something up for you lovelies.

-Caity