Endless Love (trilogy to FBR and ASC)

Chapter 20

Andy and I hadn't slept together in weeks, almost two months and it was his second day of his break from work with me and we still hadn't. We wanted it but I wasn't feeling that great and he was getting impatient and I knew he was but he was being sweet at the same time.

I woke up and he was laying next to me and kissing my neck and I really didn't feel good and I stopped him.

"Andy stop." I said.

"I was kissing you." He said.

"To get me in the mood." I mumbled.

"No. I was just kissing you." He said.

"I don't feel good." I said and he put his hand on my stomach and rubbed it.

"Stop." I said.

"What am I doing wrong?" He asked.

"Andy I'm not feeling good okay? Just go get the kids to school and let me sleep." I said and he sighed and got up and I pulled the covers over me. I felt bad but I wasn't feeling good and I didn't want him rubbing my stomach because it reminded me of being pregnant and I would rather be pregnant and happy than sick.

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"Babe wake up." Andy said softly and hovered over me and I looked up at him. I felt better than I did this morning.

"Morning sleepyhead." He said kissing my forehead and I smiled weakly.

"I feel better." I said and he handed me my medicine and water and I took it.

"Good." He said sitting down next to me and rubbing my thigh.

"I'm tired." I said.

"You're always tired." He said.

"Yeah I wonder the fuck why." I said.

"Okay I don't want to argue with you Jasmine. Please stop arguing with me I'm trying my best to take care of you." He said.

"If you really want me to feel better just stop talking to me." I said getting up and he looked up at me from the bed.

"Are you kidding me?" He asked.

"I wish I was andy. Hearing your voice scares me. You touching me scares me. You taking this break from work scares me. Seeing the kids scares me. The vacations scare me. Everything is scaring me right now because I don't know when it's going to be the last time or if it's the last time." I said and his eyes softened.

"It's not going to be the last time." He said.

"You don't know that." I said and he grabbed my hand and pulled me towards him gently.

"Come here." He said patting his lap and I sighed and straddled him and he kissed me.

"Stop saying that. Stop doubting yourself. Stop saying everything I do is going to be the last time I do it. I promise you it's not." He said and I rested my head on his shoulder and held him.

"We're alone until 3 and it's only 11." I said kissing his neck and I went up to his cheek.

"What are you doing?" He chuckled weakly and I kissed him.

"We should have some fun." I said grinding against him slowly and he smiled up at me.

"Babe-"

"Shut up." I said.

"No, Jas seriously if you're not feeling good-"

"I'm feeling fine enough to start this. Can you stop." I said.