Endless Love (trilogy to FBR and ASC)

Chapter 25

Andy and I didn't talk to each other all day and his lip was so swollen and his bruise on his cheek got worse. Skylar asked what happened and he said he fell. We both went in the kitchen around the same time and he went to make dinner as I did.

"I'm just going to make chicken and noodles with broccoli okay?" He asked without even looking at me and I stopped.

"Andy I'm sorry." I said.

"Yeah and so am I but sorry obviously can't fix this right now." He said still not looking at me and I went over to him and brushed my thumb across his bruise. He looked over at me and we locked eyes on each other's.

"Are you feeling okay?" He asked.

"No, I'm feeling horrible because of what I did to you. I'm hurting you and I don't like physically hurting you or mentally hurting you." I said.

"I'm fine." He said.

"Andy no you're not-"

"Neither are you. Please stop. Cheating on you is not okay. It's fucked up that you're even still with me-I deserved that. Just stop feeling bad. We just need to both take a break." He said.

"Your ex wife though?" I asked narrowing my eyes at him.

"Andy it's been years since I even heard about her. Literally since I was 18. How long have you been talking to her?" I asked.

"I haven't been. She called me one day in May and she cleaned herself up and I told her to meet me somewhere for lunch and we ended up having sex. Did I regret it? Yeah. Did I come home that day and hug the hell out of our kids and you? Yeah. Every time I fuck up I feel horrible and I don't understand how to explain why I do these things. I like sex. I like women. I love you." He said.

"I don't get it." I said.

"I barely understand myself." He said.

"It's not that I want to piss you off or cheat on you because you make me so happy. You have no fucking idea how happy you make me. You're my world. Our kids are my world. I just let my temptations get to me." He sighed and I didn't say anything.

"But may was the last time you cheated on me?" I asked and he nodded.

"I spent summer all over you and now we're here and you need me and I promise I won't hurt you again." He said.

"You've said that so many times before." I said.

"So are you divorcing me?" He asked and I shook my head.

"No. Might smack you around a little more but I won't divorce you again. That was more painful than anything." I said and he looked over at me.

"Can we have sex tonight?" He asked and I laughed.

"I tried getting you in the mood days ago and you didn't want to and flipped out." I said.

"I had scratches all over me from a fucking dog how was I supposed to explain that to you?" He asked.

"You did." I said.

"Yeah and then we got high and fell asleep. You act like we can never have sex again." He said as he poured noodles into a pot.

"You have no clue how I'm feeling." I said.

"I know I don't. But you're letting this control you Jasmine. I want you back. I need you back." He said.

"Okay then make dinner and let's go upstairs and fuck." I said and he looked up at me.

"Are you serious?" He asked.

"Yes I'm serious." I said.

"You just beat the shit out of me and now you want to fuck?" He asked.

"How else are we going to forgive each other?" I asked.

"Talking." He said.

"Andy you really confuse the hell out of me. I don't even know how to talk to you anymore because you always say that you just need sex and that will solve everything because you apparently love sex and you love women, so what? What do you want me to do? Have sex with you or talk? I'm so fucking confused." I said.

"What's so hard about doing both?" He asked.

"Jesus fucking Christ andy if we have sex tonight you're doing all the work because I deserve it." I said.

"Okay." He said with an attitude.

"Okay." I said with an attitude right back and he looked over at me.

"Are you feeling good enough to tonight?" He asked.

"Are you going to make me feel better?" I asked.

"Hell fucking yeah I am." He mumbled and I kissed his cheek.

"Then make dinner asshole." I said and he nodded slowly and smacked my ass hard before I walked out the kitchen. He was such a fucking asshole and I hated him but I wanted to tease the fuck out of him and see how long he could last.