Endless Love (trilogy to FBR and ASC)

Chapter 30

Andy and I were packing for vacation and my stomach had me continuously getting sick all day. He was helping me pack as he packed himself because he knew I would need it. He knew I wasn't feeling the greatest today.

"We don't need to go on this vacation-"

"Yes we do. We're going on the vacation. I'll feel better and happier on the beach. Just let me get through today. I'll be fine tomorrow." I said cutting him off and he nodded.

"Okay I just want you to be okay." He said.

"I'm okay." I said and he kissed my temple.

"Do you need tampons?" He asked.

"No I got my period last week." I said.

"Oh thank god." He said and I laughed weakly and he smiled.

"Usually I know exactly when you start your period because I'm always all over you and trying to get you in the mood until you shut me down. I guess lately we just haven't been doing it that much-" he paused.

"I mean we have. Twice in a row. But before that we didn't." He said.

"Yeah." I said.

"I worry about you, you know?" He asked in a soft tone and I looked up at him as I finished folding a shirt and nodded.

"I know." I said.

"Can you hold me?" He asked and my eyes softened and I sat up and wrapped my arms around him. He held me and kissed my forehead. Usually I was the one asking him to hold me.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

"I'm okay. Sometimes it's just hard being the one acting like everything is okay to not bring any negativity into the other ones way." He said and I kissed his chest.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Honestly?" He asked and I nodded.

"I'm worried about you, scared actually. The other night was the scariest moment of my life. Our 5 year old daughter is acting more of a parent to our two other kids than I am. I really don't want to go on the vacation because I'm scared something is going to happen away from home as fucked up as it sounds but I know we have to because my students did this for us. I'm mad about the situation with my mom because sometimes I do wish I could talk to her without being judged by her and just be able to talk. I wish you didn't hate each other either because I'm all you have left and you're all I got now. It would be so much easier if you two just got along and she fucking talked to me like I was her son but she doesn't and it really just fucking pisses me off." He said and I looked up at him and kissed him. I climbed on his lap and I cupped his cheeks.

"First of all-don't worry about me. I know that's easy to say and hard to do but I'm being serious. I'm going to be okay. I'm going to get better. I'm going to get this surgery, get treatment, and you're not going to have to worry about me." I said and he had tears in his eyes as he nodded and he looked away from me.

"Look at me andy." I said and he pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Andy look at me." I said and I tilted his chin up and his eyes were red.

"Second of all-" I paused and kissed him.

"Skylar is being a big sister. She's not acting like a parent. Yes we should be waking up earlier than we have been but sometimes we need mommy and daddy time and lately we've been forgetting to give ourselves that time. We can have mommy and daddy time without your mom." I said.

"And third, I'll talk to your mom. When we get back from vacation I'll civilly talk to her. You don't even have to be there and honestly I don't want you to be because I have things that I want to talk to her about. I'll get things situated, right now just isn't the best time because we all need to cool off. We'll be okay. Everything is going to be okay. We just have to take it one day at a time." I said and he nodded and I hugged him and rubbed his back as I did.