Back To You | Jerrie

Chapter 28

Jade

I'm a fucking idiot.

That's the only thing that keeps rolling around in my skull. I watch her walk away and do nothing to convince her to stay. It's like someone just shot me all over again. Pure agony. I want her to be in my arms, not on a damn plane. I could've asked her to stay, made her see what her leaving was doing to me, but I told her to go.

I told her to leave me, but I didn't think she'd go—or maybe I did.

I'm a fucking idiot.

She needed to choose and I can't blame her. Do I wish she would've stayed for me? Of course I do. She belongs with me. Then again, I've screwed up so many times I'm losing count. So I'm glad she got on that plane because I now know what I have to do.

I lived through her walking out the door once, but I won't live through it again.

Fuck that.

It's time to get her back.

Pulling my phone from my pocket, I call the limo driver to have him swing back and get me.

Then I call Jesy.

"What up, dickhead?" she answers laughing.

I don't even have the energy to insult her. I have more important things to do. "I'm on my way to Virginia. It's time to get shit done."

"About fucking time. I was starting to question the legitimacy of your card. I thought maybe you liked playing dress up with your little makeup company and I needed to be concerned with how often you might have stared a little too long after the showers," Jesy crows in her condescending I-think-I'm-so-awesome-just-ask-me voice.

"You wish. There'd have to be something to stare at. I need to meet with Lucy and if that doesn't go well, I have a guy in New York who I can call." The wheels are spinning in my head.

"You know Lucy is going to be a prick. I would call your guy now and start the ball rolling."

"I'll handle it."

Jesy gives a sarcastic laugh. "Just like you handled everything else? Let's face it, Muff, you've been fucking up left and right. So for once, listen to me. Call me when you land."

"Yup," I say, already forming a plan.

"It's about time you dealt with all this bullshit," Jesy says and she hangs up.

Yeah, it is about time.

Two years ago, I went into a dark place. Losing Laur and the baby was like nothing I've ever felt. When we lost the team guys, it was horrible, but she was my world at the time. I was so pissed at her for constantly riding my ass and needing me to give her more. Even though she told me to leave that day, I never should have. I lost her because I was selfish, and I won't do that to Perrie. When I found out Lauren died, my guilt was overwhelming.

Once I get in the car, I instruct the driver to go straight to the other airport.

He looks at me like I'm half stupid since we're at an airport, but I need my plane. I text the pilot and tell him to be ready to leave immediately. I don't have time to waste anymore.

Perrie reminded me it was okay to love and live, and I'll be damned if she's going to live without me, let alone love anyone else. She's mine and I'm going to show her exactly what that means.

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I land in Virginia and have an email from my sister-in-law stating if I want to meet her then I can meet her at the bar today or not at all.