Ari's POV.
"Our bed is really large." I observe, as I chew on some Mejool dates and sip my coffee.
"I like it." He smirks at me.
I place another date in my mouth, moaning a little at how good it tastes.
"How da fuq did you find my favorite food in Japan Malcolm."
"Matt took me to the Middle Eastern Market for the dates, and then to one of the 24hr Supermarkets. They had a lot of vegan stuff actually."
"Thank you for these." I glance excitedly at the edenami, mochi, green smoothie and dragon fruit had collected for me today.
"It's my pleasure. It comforts me to know you're eating well."
I blush a little.
But my heart is heavy.
I know that Malcolm would still love me if I was a chunky little thing, but I stay slim by accident. It's just all the dancing and running around which has kept me healthy ... but very tired.
I have tired myself out.
I wasn't able to come with them because I needed to nap. A busy person like me needs her rest and it's not exactly sleep that Malcolm and I use beds for these days.
We've been getting even more intimate lately.
I take another sip of coffee and let my mind wonder.
"Ari.."
"ahuh."
"What are you thinking about angel."
I look deeply into his eyes.
"You." I bite my lip.
He walks over to me and puts his hands on my shoulders.
But something is off.
And he notices immediately.
"Ari. Why do you look so sad?"
I place my forehead against his and stare down into his eyes.
"Sometimes I feel so selfish."
"Ariana?"
"I feel selfish because I have you. I have the world and I have this life. So many people deserve this more than I."
He wipes a tear from my cheek and consoles me with a kiss.
"Ariana. What happened- it is not your fault."
He knows exactly what I am talking about.
"All you can do is live and love in their honour."
I rest my head in the crook of his neck, to hide the tears streaming down my face.
He holds me tight and tells me something I have never been told before.
"It's okay to cry Ari. It's okay."
And I do.
He cuddles me. Let's the tears flow.
And I feel so much pain and love all at once.
Too much to grasp.
I only know one thing.
I know I'm here to share light with the world.
"You don't let what others think let you doubt at any time, that you, Ariana Grande-Butera, are the strongest woman in the entire world."
I kiss him for that. Deeply. His hands slip under my shirt. He rub soothing circles in my back and I kiss him deeper.
My breathing hitches and he begins to trace my rib bones.
For the very first time around him,
I feel embarrassed.
Reluctantly, I pull away from the kiss.
"... do you think I'm too skinny?" I ask, honestly concerned for the first time in months.
There is a silence between us. He looks at me, a little surprised at my question.
"No."
His fingers interlace in mine and he strokes my hand comfortingly.
"I think you are beautiful."
He kisses me
" you are healthy"
He kisses me again
"you are glowing. "
He kisses my nose.
"I also think that your booty is gorgeous. "
"Mac!" I giggle as he wipes away my tears with his index finger.
"You love it really."
I wiggle my brows at him, grinning.
He smiles at the sight of me being goofy. I know it fills his heart.
"Malcolm?"
"Yes babydoll."
"Hold me closer. "
He gently wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me in. The smell of Malcolm soothes me.
I close my eyes and breathe in gently.
I feel myself lifted from the ground and cling to him tighter.
The soft sheets touch my skin as I am laid down on the bed. My dark eyes open to meet his green ones.
They calm me.
"Looking into your eyes is like looking at the ocean." I say. "It's like being out in the middle of the ocean. Feeling so calm. So at peace."
I caress his face with my hands.
He wraps me up in the duvet like a cocoon, and peppers me with kisses as he circles his arms around me and orders me to rest.
I do.
And I dream of us.
Happy. Safe. In love.
And I realise,
Dreams come true.
xx
Hello :). I wrote something a little more heartfelt today. Ari is a human being and I thought it would be special to portray her as both fragile and strong and how Mac is supportive of her.
Would you like a fluff chapter or smut chapter next?
