Promise In The Wind

✥ 17

Chapter 17

LIAM

“Lissie, will you do me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?”

“Tinatanong pa ba ‘yan? Siyempre naman. Mahal kaya kita.”

Fuck it! That proposal keeps on playing in my fucking head!

Why do we need to love the same woman, Monterro? Of all the girls, why Lissie? Marami namang puwede dyan, e. Bakit siya pa? Bakit ‘yong babaeng gustong-gusto ko pa!?

I took a sip of my Dalmore 64 trinitas. Matapos ang naging proposal ni Zach kay Lissie sa mall, which I saw accidentally, I felt like my heart shattered into pieces.

Sounds gay, but… that’s how I actually feel right now. Lots of ‘what if’ came crashing into my head.

What if I immediately told her that I like her? Would I have the chance? Paano kung hindi na ako nagpatumpik-tumpik pa? May pag asa bang ako ang mahalin niya at hindi si Zach?

Damn it! I’m such a coward!

I remember the first day I ever looked into her eyes, I felt my entire world flipped. I felt a tear escaped from my eyes. It really hurts when you have someone in your heart, but you can’t have her in your arms.

“Hey, babe. Youalone?” A girl in her black tube dress approached me.

“Out of my sight.” I said coldly without looking at her. Agad siyang umalis sa tabi ko. Mahigit kalahating oras pa akong nagtagal sa pagiisip.

Fuck. I wanna see her. I wanna make her smile. I want to make her laugh and just sit on the sofa next to her. It’d be nice. But I’m finding it impossible now.

Ganoon nga ata talaga. Hindi lahat ng gusto mo ay puwedeng mapapunta sa’yo.

Inilang lagok ko pa ang inumin ko bago mabilis na naglapag ng lilibuhin sa table bago lumabas ng bar at nagtuloy sa kotse ko.

I’ve already felt the alcohol enter my system making me dizzy. Binuksan ko ang bintana ng kotse ko para salubungin ang hangin. Sa ganitong paraan ay makakaramdam ako ng kaginhawaan.

Natagpuan ko ang sarili ko na tinatahak ang daan papunta sa bahay ni Lissie. I just want to see her.

Ilang saglit pa at nakarating na ako sa kanila. Mula sa labas ay tanaw ko ang madilim na bahay niya. I looked at my watch and saw that it’s already eleven o’clock. Marahil ay tulog na siya. Kinuha ko ang phone ko para subukan siyang text.

I was just in the middle of composing my message when I noticed a car stop along the road. Nawala na ang atensyon ko sa mensaheng binubuo ko at tinitigan na lang ang sasakyan.

Could it be… sana mali ang hula ko.

I felt a pang in my heart when I saw who jump out of the car. The girl I love… and the man she loves – kissing and holding tightly in each other’s arms. I just let the pain take over, allowing it to numb the pain of seeing them happy with each other.

Mahigpit kong hinawakan ang manibela ko, na para bang sa ganoong paraan ay mababawasan ang sakit na dulot ng pagmamahal ko sa isang taong may mahal ng iba. Na para bang kayang saluhin nito ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Damn. I’ve never loved anyone like this.

Nakita ko ang pag-alis ni Zach. Kahit hanggang sa pagalis nito ay nakangiti pa rin si Lissie. I quickly get off my car. Naramdaman ko agad ang pagkahilo. I stood straight, trying to keep my composure. I walked silently near her, close enough to whisper her name.

“Lissie.”

Her smile has disappeared. Nagtataka marahil kung sino ang maaari pang tumawag sa kanya. Lumakad ako ng kaunti para maaninag niya ako. And when she recognized me, shock danced in her face.