[Note: Sorry sa late update. Busy busyhan ang peg. Sorry din sa errors. Enjoy.]
Sarah's POV
I couldn't help myself. I was becoming very comfortable with Gerald. I was falling for him. For Gerald. He cared for me. He respected me and my family. He loved me. I knew he was sincere. I trust him. May tiwala ako sa kanya. Pero I was still afraid of committing another mistake. Natatakot akong masaktan and I knew I'll never be afraid if that boy was with me. I knew that boy was the one for me. If only he was here.
Pero ano tong nararamdaman ko ? Pano ko itatama to ?
"Sarah, after ng movie, mawawala rin yan" I said to myself. Kasi sa ngayon, yan lang ang pwede kong isipin. Other than that, wala na. :(
***
Our tapings went smooth. Siguro kasi comfortable na kami ni Gerald sa isa't isa. Madalas din kaming lumabas for lunch or dinner with some friends and my family, kaya naman naging malapit na siya sa amin. Because of that, madalas na kaming naiimbitahan for interviews. And kilala ko ang sarili ko, I am an honest person. When my emotions take over, lumalabas ang totoo kong nararamdaman and I wasn't ready yet. Kaya as much as possible, ayokong magsalita.
"We're friends" Yan ang lagi kong naririnig from him and I thanked him for doing much of the talking. Although I knew inside of me, that I wanted something more, wala akong magagawa. My fears were overwhelming. Natatakot ako.
***
On our last taping day, wala lang. We just talked random thoughts when Direk gave us a break. We were seated on a stool. Nag-uusap lang kami about some thing. Nagtatawanan lang then I remembered what happened in Gensan. Natahimik ako. I thought it's the right time to tell him. I made him promise not to laugh and he did. Then I looked straight, away from him.
When I started my story, he seemed very surprised but his focus never left me. I continued telling him and I could feel he was staring. When I handed him the stone, he shot a familiar look at it. It seemed like he missed the stone or something. I was surprised either. Then I told him:
"Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na kapag nagkita kami ulit, siya ang lalaking pra sakin."
I didn't believe in destiny. SA fate pwede pa. If things were meant to happen, it would. Those lines put a wide smile on his face. I didn't know what those lines had brought him but it's as if I was doing him so much favor. And when I told him about Ray and the reason why I never accepted the apple juice, his mood shifted to an unpleasant one. Hindi ko alam kung ano yun pero I saw anger.
I looked directly at him. I wanted him to say that he's the boy. That he remembered what happened. That he had my ponytail. Instead, he answered:
"You're beautiful."
Mixed emotions. Hindi ito ang gusto kong marinig pero it somehow pleased me. I answered him.
"Echosero ka talaga. Tara na, tawag na tayo ni Direk."
I stood up, leaving him seated secretly smiling as I walk. :)))
