Gerald's POV
From that day, hindi ko na tinago ang nararamdaman ko. Mahal ko si Sarah. Mahal na mahal. And as much as I love her, I never wanted her to have doubts on me. I didn't want to lose her trust. Ayokong pagdudahan niya ako. Maybe. Perhaps, this was not the right time . Baka hindi pa siya hand. At kahit na gusto kong ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na ako ang batang yon, natatakot ako sa nararamdaman niya. I was afraid of what she might think. I didn't want her to think that I was taking advantage of her weakness. Of her vulnerable and innocent heart.
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I became very showy. Pinapakita ko nalang yung feelings ko sa kanya and I wanted her to realize that whether I was the boy or not, I still deserve her heart. Na kaya ko pa rin siyang alagaan That there were other people in the world who could ease her pain and take care of her like what the boy did, like what I did. Ilang beses pumasok sa isip ko na what if hindi ako yung batang yun ? What if makita niya yung batang yun ? Paano na ako ? Will she be mine ? Will Sarah leave me ?
"No. Gerald, be thankful na ikaw ay ikaw. It's part of a plan. Hindi mo rin naman inexpect to diba ? So just be thankful" I thought to myself. Masaya ako ngayon because of Sarah at ayokong mawala tong happiness na to just because of negative thoughts.
To be honest, Sarah, being that girl in Gensan, didn't make a lot of difference. I mean, I have loved her for her personality. I have loved her before she opened up. I have loved her before I knew. Mas minahal ko lang siya ng ssobra when she confessed. I was very glad she did. Ika nga sa kanta
"This time i'll be sweeter."
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The premier night came. I saw the most beautiful woman in the world in her blue gown. It was as if an angel came down and smiled at me. I took her hand. We walked on the red carpet. Syempre ako ang escort niya. Before the start of the movie marami pa kaming binating mga executives and artists ng ABS. And I never let go of her hand. I felt like losing her pag binitawan ko siya. She never let go of mine too.
I didn't know what she had on her hands that I couldn't keep my hands off. Kahit may magpapapicture, our hands were still entwined. May "LOVE GLUE" daw sabi ng fans. Haha. Siguro ng meron on my part. And sana, SANA ! Meron din kay Sarah.
To clear myself, I loved Sarah and I wasn't doing that, being sweet and all, just for the sake of promoting. Let me repeat, I WASN'T. I was doing that because that's what I felt. That's what I wanted. That's what I wanted to prove. I didn't care as to what people will think of me. That I might be using Sarah. That I might be taking advantage of her.
Kilala ko ang sarili ko and I knew I never felt this way before. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman to. Ngayon lang ako sumaya ng ganito, mainspire ng ganito, at sana pang habambuhay na.
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We were very happy for the outcome of our movie. I felt the excitement and at the same time KILIG when we watched the movie. Throught out the whole time, I was stealing a glance at Sarah and I could see that she was greatly pleased. She even slapped my shoulder when our kilig moments flashed on the screen. I am so in love with the girl beside me and I couldn't hide my happiness when I saw her smiling.I didn't know what have I done to deserve this girl. This happiness.
I was just hoping to be the reason of her every smile, every laugh, every twinkle in her eyes. Sana ako ang dahilan Sarah.SANA.
[Note: Sorry for the errors. Enjoy ^.^]
