not just a memory( r5 fanfic)

chapter 17

HOLLY POV

UGH ! does he know how hard this is on me . he just doesn't understand . he left me and then he wants to tell me what i can and can't do . he moves on but i can't. wow hippacrite . and mean who does he think he is ? UGH ! BOYS !!!!!!!!!!! " h rocky "  grumble slipping in the car and slamming it shut . " so im guessing it didn't -" but i cut him off right there . " ROCKY ! " i warn him . "got it "and with that not another sound is made . a few silent tears run down my face as i park in my driveway . " look , im sorry ross is being a jerk to you . he doesn't deserve you " rocky sighs . i look at him wit my teary eyes. " no don't cry holly . it will gt better i promise " he says calming me and giving me a loving hug . " no rock . im done with ross . im tired of him . if he can't stop being so bipolar , stop being a stubborn arse , then im done . i can't handle this ! my sister died rocky !!!!!! Hay moved away ! ross wasn't there for me . and he's not here for me now . he's not the same guy from when we were kids . " i cry into his chest . " ross is a teenage boy . he's stupid and crazy . he's not going through what you are no . he doesn't get what he wants either no . but he is confused . he has some bumps too . like fighting with his best friend . how he feels about someone but doesn't know if she'll like him back . trying to make things right between everyone . " rocky lists . "great so i started this ! " i sigh frustarated . " no . he did " rocky disagrees. i wipe my tears and look at him . " thanks rock " i smile greatfully at him ." of course " he smiles back .we get out of the car and walk in our houses . "  hello dear , ross is here . i need to go to the store , don't ruin the kitchen last time i left you 2 alone you messed up the kitchen " she laughs and walks out the door . i smile at the memory but frown at now .it was so simple then. but then i had to grow apart from him .no wait . he had grow apart from me. i sigh and look at ross playing with my bugger brothers . he hasn't seen them since they were 5 i think . the twins make sour faces when they notice me . they hate me . ross turns around and looks up at me  " Holly " he manages . instead of answering i just ignore him and walk upstairs . i heard my brothers cheer but i could honestly careless . i walk in my room and slam the door shut . i don't want to see ross . it will involve more yelling and more pain for the both of us. i don't want ross to go through that . wait no i mean i don't want to go through that . i didn't have enough time to myself because ross opened my door . GOSH DARN IT HOLLY YOU NEED TO USE THE STUPID LOCK IN THE DOOR IT' NOT JUST FOR YOUR BROTHERS ANYMORE . IT'S FOR ROSS !!!!!!!! no . no i will not take this . i run over to my window and open it . but before i could get out 2 big strong arms wrap around me and pull me away from it . ' BLOODY MURDER  " i shout . ross covers my mouth and shuts the window and locks my door . " Holly " ross say with a little hurt in his eyes . i stay quiet . " UGH! why are you so complicated ! you make no since ! " he says harshly . i said nothing . " you need to get over this . you are so stubborn you know that ? WELL YOU ARE ! " he screams . no word leaves my mouth ." ARE YOU GONNA SPEAK !!!!" he yells . i look down at my hands continuing to stay hushed . i would be screaming at this point but living with the brats downstairs taught me a thing or 2 . " WHY ARE YOU BEING THIS WAY HOLLY DIDN'T YOUR MOTHER EVER TEACH YOU RESPECT OR WAS IT YOUR STUPID DAD !!!!!" he yelled . i felt cold water slide down my cheek . cold tears . he has crossed the line already . wow . how did it come to this . i stand up from my placeon my bed and walk into my closet . i walked in it and locked it . i got a lock on it when i hit puberty and my brothers rummaged through my personal items . i slid down the wall and cried to myself . what if ross heard himself ! he wouldn't be happy . i decided to record him yelling and screaming at me . " GET OUT OF THAT CLOSET HOLLY AND TALK TO ME ! I NEVER THOUGHT YOR DADDY WOULD RUB OFF ON YOU !!!!!!" he screamed . " GET A LIFE HOLLY CLOSET!" he yelled once more . " I CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS EVER YOUR FRIEND !" he said venomously . i think thats enough recording . i stop the thing on my phone . and cry . i just cry . i let every sob , tear , and gasp out of my system . i can't take it anymore . " maybe we shouldn't be friends anymore  " i said un audible . " WHAT !" he asked clearly not hearing anything . i kicked my door as hard as possible and said as loud as i could through tears , " MAYBE WE SHOULDN'T BE FRIENDS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!" . the room got quiet besides my sobs but no doubt ross was still there . " what " he asked softer and sadder . " im only a complicated make no since , stubborn , girl that learned respect from her dead and harsh father , or my harsh father rubbed off on me named holly closet that needs a life , and thought when she reunited with her best friend she would be happy forever but to find ou he couldn't believe i was ever his friend . " i say softly with tears pouring down lie rain . " Holly i-" ross cut himself off . but the next words made me melt into the ground . " maybe we shouldn't " he sighed . " i love you " i croak out but it sounded more like " i ve o " with my tears in the way . " what ..... wait never mind . i don't care anyways . have a nice life Holly " my bedroom door shut signaling he left . " WHY ! WHY DID THIS HAPPEN TO ME ! WHY DOES THE WORLD HATE ME ! WHAT DID I DO WRONG ! " i cry . " what did i do wrong " . " I THOUGHT WOULD ALWAYS LOVE YOU ROSS ! BUT IT TURNS OUT YOUR A JERK ! A STUPID , UNCONSIDRATE , SELFISH RUDE HEARTBRAKE !!!!! I WILL NEVER TRUST YOU AGAIN !!!!!!!!!! . I HATE YOU ! ROSS HOR LYNCH YOUR DEAD TO ME ! DEAD ! NEVER COME BACK IN MY LIFE EVER AGAIN !!!!!! "  i screamed ! but his words nailed to my head . maybe we shouldn't . maybe we shouldn't .maybe we shouldn't . i was right all along . he gave up on me . he didn't just give up on me . he gave up on us . maybe we shouldn't ...........................................

OH NO !!!!!!!! did ross really give up ... or did Holly ???? # suspiciousness . tell me how you reacted to this .  vote is you were shocked !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was . I didn't now it was coming . yes I did  . haha .  ANY IDEAS ???? COMMENT THEM BELOW AND I JUST MIGHT I THEM!!! thanks for your support

~kate