not just a memory( r5 fanfic)

chapter 20

" I know who you are" Lauren giggles. " right ..." Ross says awkwardly.  "unm... yea so lauren are you excited to spend 8 months. traveling the world. with us "riker asks enthusiastically . " yea totally! I love.your. band by the way.  and rydel your outfits. rock!" lauren compliments . by now all the lynches plus ratliff were crowded around  precious  lauren and i was behind all of them hidden  from her view. " aww why thank you but your  style  is amazing  too " rydel gushes. " all inspired  by you  guys " she winks.  " so lauren why don't  we put your things on the bus and get settled " rocky says taking her bags. " thanks rocky  but i can carry them " she refused but rocky had already  walked away with them " okay lets get loaded!!!!'"ryland cheered and they all gathered on the bus.  the doors closed right as i was supposed to go through and my face squished against  the doors. " GUYS!!!! "i yell and bang om the glass.  i hear muffled laughter  and the doors re opened. i then climbed inside. " sorry we forgot  you were there " riker laughed.  " yea!  obviously! " i grunted. the bus was huge and seperated into 3sections . a kitchen/game/bathroom area. the bunk beds.  and a party room at the back. ii stepped into the bed section then realized something.  " guys there are only 8 beds. there are 10 of us including the driver when he sleeps" i pointed out. "actually 9 i have to stay. i forgot i had a summer job.im gonna have to stay with amity. sorry. have fun hollister "bella says then disappears.  that is the last tims i will see her for  months. sigh. " i guess one of us will have to share " ryland shrugged.  " lauren would you like to share a bed or be alone " ry asked.  of course they would ask .....her . please say alone  please say Alone!. " umm i don't  mind sharing  "she shrugged.  " with who girl or boy " rocky asked. say boy say boy say boy! " umm girl " she chooses. " rydel or holly. " riker asks . say rydel say rydel say rydel SAY RYDEL!!!!! " i don't  mind meeting  new people i pick holly " she says matter of factly. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! " ummm........yay? " i fake smile  but it sounded more of a question. " holly top or bottom " ross asks me. " bottom " i answer.  " okay its settled.  girls  go ahead and pick we will get the bags " riker says and ratliff stays while everyone  else goes.  " rat aren't  you  gonna go " i ask.  " go where " he questions  . " with all the guys " i reply.  " why would  i do that he says sassily.  " cause your a guy " i cock my eyebrows.  " come again " he holds out his ear. rydel stands up.  " rat we've  talked about this.  you can't  hang out with the girls now go help the guys " she says sweetly and gently pushes  him away. he hangs his head and leaves  . " i dont know whats worse.  you have told him a bunch of times he's  not a girl or that he still thinks  he is one.  " i laugh. " ratliff knows he's  not a girl he does it to be funny " delly explains. " who is he trying to impress " i ask.  " i don't know " she shrugs . 'EPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!'!!' squeals  a girl behind us.  " dang girl!  you got lungs the size of a elephant  that was loud " i say holding my ears. " yea yea whatever  i know who he is trying to impress its so obvious rydel. he likes you " lauren stampers.  " Ellington  is like my brother  " delly defends.  " no he likes you  EPPP!!!wait this.means that the rumors are true.  he likes you  and you like him back! !" she fangirls.  "im pretty  sure thats not the case " del says again. " its true its true its true " lauren sings. "" so are you a rydeliff shipper "i ask.  she stares blankly at me.  was it something  i said? . " what the heck is a rydeliff shipper " she asks. " you know rydel and ratliff rydeliff " i say awkwardly.  " don't  eved say that. its rydelington okay ....... RYDELLINGTON ALL THE WAY " she scolds  then goes back to fangirling. well then.....it was something  i said.  " we he is still with kelly so rydelington is historyington untilington they break upington . now lets choose  the beds " rydel resolves. me and kelly pick the first bottom cot.  and rydel chooses the top one across from us.( go across from the bottom one they have and then go up to the top) . the guys came in soon and chose their beds.  it ended up as .... left top - ryland rocky left bottom - riker and me ( and lauren) . right top - ratliff rydel.  right bottom - driver bed ross. " okay now that we have picked our beds lets make them as homey as possible and decorate them with blankets " ross jumps up and down . we all grab our bags and get out our bedding. i brought  a yellow and blue and white tye dye comferter and pink yellow and blue fuzzy pillows. lauren brought a zebra print blanket  with black pillows.  she.must really  like black and white. " okay lets get this straight  i get the wall.  don't  touch  or.move my things  unless  i give you permission  . stay on your side.  and if i ask not to be bothered  don't  talk to me.  touch  me.  or get near me.  follow those rules and we should be fine as far as this bed thing goes. " i tell her she nods. " same rules apply for me to you. you play nice we won't  have a problem  " she says a bit sassily.  " im sorry i don't  play nice.  if you don't  like how  i act then to bad " i scoff. " look i didn't  enter the contest to be bossed around by a sassy sweetheart bunkmate.  i am mature enough thank you.  and you can act however you desire  but i will say what i want about  your  attitude " she narrows  her eyes. " arr you  asking me to change  the way i act so you  dont have to tell the others " i ask. " so you did pick up what i put down " she rolled her eyes. " i can't  change who i am." i.complain.  " then act on your good side " she huffs.  " my good side left when my bestfriends moved  to become r5,  my sister moved to become  an actress and my youngest  sister died cause she was hit by a car now if i am mean to you im sorry but i don't  have tolerance  with anything anymore.  and your arse snapping at me and telling me to change doesn't  help. ! " i blurt out . my face full and red of.steamy anger. " im sorry but making up stories  isn't  a good thing " she rolled her eyes. " yes exactly.  my life is a made up story.  like when my dad beat us to give me this.permanent  scar before he was sent to jail and shot " i lift up.my shirt to reveal a long scar across my waist. "or when the lynches moved and i secretly  cut myself " i hold out my wrist that had a fadded  cut.  " when  my sister moved " i hold out the bracelet  haley gave me.  " when my sister died " i roll up my jeans to show her stitches  from the  car wound  i got.  " cause i would lie about that.," i say close to tears.  " im sorry holly " lauren frowns.  " right. make the bed your self " i drop the blankets and run to the bathroom.  i rinse my face to cool down and keep me from crying.  j.never showed anyone  those life imprints i call them.  not even  ross.  not  bella.  not mom or dad.  nobody.  i dry my face with a towel and gasp for air.  when my lungs go back to normal i sigh and exit the bathroom.  everyone  was out there waiting for.me around the door. they all looked concerened.  i looked at lauren.  she had guilt plastered.on her face.  i did the only thing i could think of.  run.  i ran to a room and locked  myself in there.  this is gonna be a long trip