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{OTP/Prinxiety} - Kindly Calm Me Down

(not a request but i thought of this when i heard this song lol)

Trigger Warning: Panic Attack (probably poorly written i'm sorry)

Virgil was no stranger to panic attacks. He had really bad social anxiety, after all. 

Everything was fine at first, but halfway through the party he somehow got separated from his boyfriend. He felt the air begin to get thick and the space closing in on him.

He felt it getting difficult to breathe as people bumped into him, left and right. After searching for Roman for 10 minutes, he decided to go to the bathroom, so no one would approach him.

He made it up the stairs and closed the bathroom door behind him. He was starting to shake intensely as tears started to stream down his cheeks. He sat down against the bathtub and pulled his knees to his chest.

So cold, alone

Could you be my blanket?

Surround my bones

When my heart feels naked

No strength, too weak

I could use some saving

Saving. His thought faltered to the Prince-like boy that he came to this party with. His breathing still uneven, Virgil smiled sadly.

And your love's so strong

Like a pill, i take it,I take it, I take it

Like a pill, your love, I take it

I take it, I take it

Like a pill, your love, I take it!  

He loved Roman so much. He instantly started thinking about him. All the times he's helped him. How he smiled. His prince-like attitude and confidence. He just wanted for it to be over so he could find Roman. He still sat there, shaking with choppy breaths. 

When my world gets loud, could you make it quiet down?

When my head, it pounds, could you turn down all the sounds?

If I lay in pain, by my side would you stay?

If I need you now, would you kindly calm me down?

Would you kindly calm me down?

Would you kindly calm me down?

Virgil heard his phone buzz as it sat on the floor, near his foot. He saw the text from Roman.

Roman: Babe? Where are you? Are you ok?

He formed a melancholy smile. Roman is like a prince in so many ways. He wanted to reply. To tell him where he was. He wanted help, but he couldn't bring himself to move his hands. He sat there, shaking and tears forming once more. The darkness surrounded him and he couldn't move.

When my heart's not pure,

Would you kill my disease?

And when there's no cure, 

You are just what I need.

When I lose my mind,

Would you still remind me?

When I'm feeling lost,

Would you come and find me?

He heard the doorknob rattle. He tried to compose himself but failed, still letting out choked sobs. The person who entered knelt down in front of him.

"Virgil?"

He looked up slightly to see Roman, who had a concerned look in his eyes. He continued to shake intensely. He let out choppy breaths as the boy pulled him closer. He lifted his chin up.

"Virgil, you're gonna be okay. Just copy my breathing alright?" He said in a soft voice.

The panicked boy complied and tried to imitate his lover's breathing pattern.

I'd take it, I would take it

Like a pill, your love, I take it

I take it, I take it

Like a pill, your love, I take it

"Remember. In for 4 seconds," He guided his shaking boyfriend. "Hold for 7, out for 8."

Virgil tried his best to follow. Roman looked at him. "Good. Now just repeat that. You're gonna be okay. I promise." Roman said softly. He placed a gentle hand to his lover's cheek and continued to guide him through his breathing.

When my world gets loud, could you make it quiet down?

When my head, it pounds, could you turn down all the sound?

If I lay in pain, by my side would you stay?

If I need you now, would you kindly calm me down?

Would you kindly calm me down?

Would you kindly calm me down?

Soon after, Virgil's breathing had evened out. Roman had pulled the boy close and kissed the top of his head. He pulled away and looked into his tearstained eyes. He brushed back his bangs and placed a kiss on his forehead.

Virgil smiled sadly. "T-Thank you, Roman." 

Roman smiled and placed a gentle kiss on the boy's lips. "You're welcome, darling."

Virgil smiled at the nick name. "I love you so much." He sighed.

Roman smiled. "I love you too." He pulled the boy into one last embrace, before they both stood up. The boy laced their fingers together and placed a kiss on Virgil's knuckles.

"Do you wanna go home?" He asked.

Virgil nodded slightly. Roman placed a quick kiss on his lips. "Ok then, let's go."

(a/n ok yeah so again sorry if the whole panic attack was a little rusty. like i said i've never experienced one so feel free to correct me! ok bye. Stay Awesome!)