sanders sides oneshots

healing

Ship: Royality (past, broken up)
AU: could be Canon or Human

Note: just finished writing this and if you can't tell, i'm projecting just a bit (a lot) LOL. anyways this might not be the best since i started it late last night but i hope you enjoy regardless :]

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Roman laid in bed as he stared up at the ceiling. He looked around, examining the numerous Disney and Broadway posters he had up there along with some glow in the dark stars that Virgil had helped him to put up.

He sighed heavily as he sat up and let his head fall into his hands. He had been trying to distract himself from feeling horrible by being productive creatively but the ideas just couldn't seem to come to him.

He was bored. Bored, bored, bored, bored and more bored.

Or at least that's what he was telling himself that he was feeling.

To be honest, he has spent the whole day thinking about Patton. He had never realized how much reminded him of the cheery man until he had been looking over his room and ever so often would catch a glimpse of a stuffed animal, a piece of clothing, a picture, a cat comic, or anything else that would make him think about his cheery ex-lover.

It's not that looking at these things made him sad in and of themselves. The memories attached to them were ones that he would cherish forever and he did not plan on getting rid of any of them. However, there was a pang in his chest at the thought of never receiving another gift from Patton with those same intentions again.

He knows that he can't control how Patton feels, and he obviously does not want to force a relationship onto the man since he has made it clear that he doesn't hold the same feelings for him anymore.

But it still hurts, he wants to act all cheery and enthusiastic in front of the others and towards Patton but he can't keep denying the truth. He's still in love with him, and it hurts knowing that he doesn't feel the same.

Of course Patton is imaginably also hurting and healing from the breakup. Anyone would be, but Roman just can't seem to stop comparing their supposed ways of coping.

'Roman, you need to let yourself take time. You deserve it.'

Logan's words rang through his brain like a bell. Deep down he knew that the stoic man was right, but it was still hard to let himself actually feel and take that time.

However, he's gonna try. For two reasons;

One, he knows that he'll just end up burning himself out and shutting away from everyone if he doesn't take the time he needs. He doesn't want to put the others through that.

Two, as much as he doubts himself, he knows deep down that Patton cares about him. He knows that their friendship will always be there. They both care about it too much to let that go. So, no matter how much time they both need, they're gonna be okay. He knows it.

So, for now, he would just let himself feel. He sighed and laid back down as he picked up a polaroid album of the honey eyed man in question.